i think i have ocd,

so i think i have ocd and i have no idea, these are some of my many symptoms.

1. i count things like crazy.
2. if a tv remote has an uneven amount of buttons i will do whatever i can to not have to use it.
3. if things are messy or out of order i have to fix and organize themm!!
4. however, my room is a messss, this is the only exception. but when it gets extremely dirty it drives me crazy and i have to clean until it is perfectly clean again
5. my bed is never made during the day, but i cannot sleep in it unless i make it right before i go to sleep.
6. i am terrified that people are outside of my room watching me at night.
7. i get urges to inflict pain upon myself and others.. even though i NEVER would.
8. things that arent symetrical drive me crazy
9. pornographic thoughts and images run through my mind, and im terrified people will know what im thinking.. but i dont want them to be there.
10. if i have like an itch on one leg, i have to scartch the other leg the same, otherwise i will feel like things are uneven.
11. i am obsessive over my weight, and even though im fairly skinny i hate how my body looks. i find myself always thinging about this and obsess about how i wish i could be... but i cant stop eating. i eat all day everyday.
12. when taking notes in class if i mess up, or they dont look neat i will rewrite them.. once i rewrote about ten pages of math notes so they would be right.
13. my worst symptom is kinda hard to explain.. i always feel like if i set a goal for myself and i make it something will happen, and if i dont the opposite will happen... like for example if im walking down the stairs ill think if i get to the 10th step before the person who is coming up them then i will have a good day.. but if not my day will be terrible.. and thats kinda not the whole extent of it but i cant explain.


along with this i have sooo many other symptomss. i dont know what to do i am only 16 and i know if i told my mom she wouldnt believe me or do anything about it. my sister has extreme fits of anger management.. and even though my dad says she should see a psychologist, my mom swears against it and doesnt believe in therapy or medicine to fix these kinds of issues. im really afriad this will eventually overtake my life.. and i dont know what to do.

also i dont think anyone would ever suspect this kind of thing from me, like i mean i play sport, i do well in school, i have tons of really good friends, and i always have a great time. i dont think any of them have any idea i feel this way.

Hey,

Yes, if you don't get this under control - you said it - it might take over your life. To me, it certainly sounds like OCD and you need to take action, now. I'd start by telling your mother (if you're close to her) or someone else that you are close to. You might need therapy to get this under control - That's how I managed to get my OCD under control but I'm still afflicted by it to some extent.

Your obsession with your weight could lead to a full-blown eating disorder too. So, basically, what I'm saying is that - yes - this is OCD and - yes - you need to get it sorted by going to a doctor.

Take care,
Kevin.