by mac885 » Sat Oct 13, 2007 6:05 pm
I have several other issues with OCD, as do many people, but the strangest and most persistent comes with music. It completely controls my life, and I'm focused on it more than the average person. I'm a musician myself, but thats not beside the point. I'm sure at some point you've all turned to your friends and stated, "yea I've had that song stuck in my head for hours." But with me, once a certain song, or even a small clip of a song is listened to, it loops itself for DAYS, even MONTHS. Then it proceeds to change my mood, self esteem, the way I treat others, and generally drives me into borderline insanity. The only solution is letting it run its course until my brain finds another one to torture me with. These songs tend to constantly flood my head with images, whether an ex-girlfriend, a dying friend or family member, and even events that have never happened to me, such as extreme drug addiction, societal pain, and inhumanity around the world. It will even enter my mind and make me violently ill, usually when someone dies or I feel injustice has been practiced somewhere in the world. It's a constant plague that haunts me in my daily life, like maybe something spiritual is attempting to tell me something. This maybe the newest psychological subfield! Anyone have any thoughts?