ocd trigger health scare

Hiya I have a post on here already but wanted to start afresh one as it's been 7 years since my last entry
I have suffered with every type of ocd for many years, decades. I'm in my 50's now and it's still no easier.
I had a major health issue a few weeks ago and came back all clear for cancer although I have to have further investigations. It was two weeks of hell think the worst possible scenario that's what ocd does. Anyway this has cause a trigger relating to an incident that happened over 40 years ago.
Very scared by writing this.
When I was 13 years I stayed at my gym teachers house. Her little girl was I believe about 4. We were sat in the sofa reading a book and mum said its bedtime so we went upstairs and she went into the bathroom. I followed and then gave her some space on the toilet so I walked to the door entry, Mum was still downstairs, I asked if she finished, got some toilet roll and wiped her, but as soon as I did. I though should I have done that. Could she had done it herself?. I'd never taken a child to the toilet before so was unsure. Mum came in not long after and I was going to say that I'd assisted her but thought I'd done something wrong so I didn't say anything.
Since this event I have never taken a child to the toilet. I've never been able to conceive children which I love. I have neices and nephews who I love immensely. I have soneone that i can confind in but they say "oh no not this again" so I keep it to myself. Every day this in my mind, somewhere. This has spiked probably 5 times in my lifetime. I normally end up on medication anxiety medication which brings me back to some normality for a few years.
Thanks for listening


I can most of the time put it to the back of my mind but any very stressful life situation triggers it and starts all over again.

Hiya
Can anyone assist at all.
Many thanks

How's your anxiety doing now?