Spike over an article about a politician that came out late

Several minutes ago I read an article about a politician. He stated that he didn't think he was gay in high school and had a crush on a girl. When he attended college he felt his "latent homosexuality" emerging and came out in his mid-30s.

I've had HOCD since May 2006, and this year marks 18 years since I was afflicted with this obsession. I've made major progress, but a part of me still wonders if I'm denying the inevitable and just living a lie. I'm 37 and never had a long term girlfriend and my mom asked if I was gay years ago although that's stopped. I still spike when I see nice looking guys, but the spikes are mellow compared to the sharp spikes I would get circa 2006-2008. I guess my OCD latched on to this article.

mc1 wrote:I guess my OCD latched on to this article.

I'd say so. OCD will find a way.

Not reassurance, but as someone who's Bi, all I can say is Mister Politician was likely 'different', whether or not he stuck a pin in it with a label. Which includes struggling with conflicting feelings/thoughts/attractions/fantasies. I don't think it just springs out of nothing.

Snaga wrote:

mc1 wrote:I guess my OCD latched on to this article.

I'd say so. OCD will find a way.

Not reassurance, but as someone who's Bi, all I can say is Mister Politician was likely 'different', whether or not he stuck a pin in it with a label. Which includes struggling with conflicting feelings/thoughts/attractions/fantasies. I don't think it just springs out of nothing.

I thought the same. However, my OCD latched onto this and I started thinking, "You've had thoughts about being gay since 2006 at age 19. Clearly, this is who you are and the OCD is a front, a veneer."