Is this r4pe?

Ive been having ocd for some time now (especially pocd and contamination ocd) and like sth it keeps sticking on to is this:
When I was younger I would rub my genital with my plushies. Didn’t know it was wrong, continued until was 15.
Now I keep remembering it and feeling terrible. At first I had the fear it was some fetish even though I never had anything for it specifically (I still sometimes question if I have a fetish but I have 0 symptoms to that). But a few days ago I saw somebody who is almost in the exact same situation as me. But they were afraid they had r4ped the plushie. Now I went through the comment section and all of them said it’s not r4pe bc it’s an object and obviously can’t be traumatised or feel anything since it has no mind, but due to reassure those comments were all deleted and by now the only one that’s left is „would it really be that bad if you had r4ped it?“. And this made me feel bad bc I simply don’t want to be a r4pist. Like yes it wouldn’t have been hurt and it’s not a crime, but the fact that I’d still be a r4pist is just making me want to vomit and end my life.
And I know I’m asking for reassurance, but can somebody please tell me if it would have been r4pe?

Hello and welcome!

Of course not; it's an object. Are you ultimately afraid that you would force yourself on a person, by virtue of having done that?