Are My intrusive thoughts actually Sexual OCD or POCD?

Made this account to ask this question. I can’t remember exactly how long I’ve had my intrusive thoughts, but it has been for a while, I’d say at least since I was around 9 or 10. And I’m 16 now. They’ve always been of a sexual nature, they used to be more sexually aggressive and rapey, but that’s seemed to drop away. I’ve always dealt with them well enough, but also I’ve now taken more notice to what specific things trigger them. People, sometimes family, sometimes kids, and sometimes animals. And today it was really bothering me again about whether or not my intrusive thoughts were more than just intrusive thoughts. So I ended up looking at lolicon to see if it would result in an erection. And it did. Which freaked me out, My stomach was even hurting because of it. So I ended up masturbating to see if the disgust I was feeling would stick through the whole experience or if the erection would drop. It didn’t, and I ended up finishing. Normally these thoughts or feelings have never resulted in a physical arousal before, so that was the first time that happened, but I think the fact it was Lolicon specifically might be relevant? The arousal happened for that but never for any actual people. I googled into it and learned POCD can have a false arousal happen or something. And some of the symptoms sort of match with my deal, but like i said earlier, children aren’t the only trigger for the thoughts. So are my intrusive thoughts actually a part of A Sexual OCD or POCD?

Hello and welcome.

A few thoughts.

Zellauss wrote:but also I’ve now taken more notice to what specific things trigger them. People, sometimes family, sometimes kids, and sometimes animals.

Nothing surprising there. Think of this also as overlapping between sexual intrusive thoughts, and harm intrusive thoughts, the latter of which most usually focuses on loved ones and pets. This is literally common as dirt, from my understanding. There's nothing unusual in this.

Zellauss wrote:So I ended up looking at lolicon to see if it would result in an erection.

Well, porn is porn, and don't forget that things perceived as Taboo can be rather invigorating. Which doesn't mean a thing in the real world because people can think of all sorts of things that don't have any bearing on their real-world self.

And, don't check. Don't check, don't test. You'll only let yourself down. You're masturbating, it's not going to automatically switch things off because you're checking by looking at something you're using to test with. Not to judge from virtually all the stories here. Sex is sex, including sex a person has no intention nor real desire to engage in. But here in this forum, we overthink these things. Not a good idea.