Possible ZOCD, I'm freaking out

Since some hours I am ruminating about whether or not I have Zoophilia. I already had Harm OCD, still have POCD though I'm doing better but today I remembered things that make me panick really much. It's about animals and I'm terrified now. I'm a minor, female if that information is important.

First of all, I want to clarify that I do doubt that I really have zoophilia. Just today I saw a dog and was like "A DOG!" because I adore dogs really much and would love to have pets. I never had any sexual feelings/desires towards animals, just some months ago I was hooked up on watching cute dog and cat videos and I melted all the time and it made me wish much more to have pets. Today, after I remembered it, I also tested myself where I imagined two animals doing it and I didn't get aroused (though now I constantly get thoughts that disgust me and I feel like I'm about to throw up).

But still there are some things that make me doubt everything.

First of all, since I was young I liked the book series Warrior Cats, and would also make an OC (like fantasies about me being a cat there). Some months ago I was really depressed and in a panicking state so having fantasies about being in this world calmed me down. I also fantasized that I would be together with one of the characters and it led me to wanting to fantasize about doing the thing with him. I'm not sure if I ever really got that far, but still I feel so disgusting for that and ashamed because why the heck would I imagine him and me doing the thing as cats?! I also once watched a yt video where two cats were mating and I think I kind of tried to use that as reference? Idk, I'm not sure about that but still I'm so disgusted of myself for that. The only possible explanation would be because I always have sexual fantasies out of the blue with older men, so I guess this also happened there but still it just disgusts me so much and that terrifies me about the possibility of being a z.

Also, there are greek myths with animals and I tried to find two of them and that disgusts me too. I'm so panicking and terrified. Does any of that mean I'm a z? I don't want to have any paraphilia and I don't want to je the disgusting and ###$ up daughter at home. I feel so horrible, my parents don't deserve such a disgusting child like me and my friends don't deserve having me in their lives. Please, somebody help me

Well, OCD is OCD. It seems as if you've already had some OCD themes going on- tell me, have you been diagnosed with it?- and so this is a new one. I don't think it's uncommon in these forums for folks to speak of cycling through various themes.

You hardly seem to be a zoophile. And also seem far from the disgusting person you fear being.