OCD help

I posted this problem on a gay forum and they told me it’s OCD and I’m not gay or bi

I keep testing myself by looking at trans porn like the bj scene where a man is giving the trans a bj and I get a weird sensation in my mouth and I can get to ejaculation very fast even though I would not have an erection and be flaccid I can make myself ejaculate by looking at this and having a sensation in my mouth? I’m not interested in trans people or have an attraction to them. My biggest fear with my hocd is the thoughts of giving a bj? So why does that make me get a weird mouth sensation and makes me ejaculate very fast even though I’m not turned on? I also get groinals from seeing a bj scene when I’m not masturbating also.
Can someone help me please

I wouldn't think trans porn would be a good way to test- all testing is bad and shouldn't be done, but given that a lot of men who look at trans porn are straight in practice, that's.. just not a good way to test yourself. Since straight men do in fact look at 'tranny porn'. I've heard various reasons why that's so but that's immaterial here, except that they do look at it. I wouldn't check myself that way if I was battling HOCD.

And wonder of wonders- a gay forum actually told you you're OCD and not tried to tell you you're gay? That is gold. Do not let that go, and take their word for it! Usually I accuse gay forums of wrongly saying people ARE gay. I'm Bisexual myself, so I'm not being anti-gay here, just stating an observation.

I don’t like trans women or porn they don’t turn me on or anything I watch it as a test to see a bj scene to see if I can ejaculate to it and it worries me it happens quick even though I’m flaccid? I just want to know why that happens.

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I don’t like trans women or porn they don’t turn me on or anything I watch it as a test to see a bj scene to see if I can ejaculate to it and it worries me it happens quick even though I’m flaccid? I just want to know why that happens.

I don't know- because it's taboo, maybe? I think they best rule of thumb, if you're not into something, don't watch it. Yes, my OCD has in the past made quite a bit out of my bisexuality (meaning if I let it, it will bounce me between "You're Gay, Gay Gay" and "This is all bull you're Straight") but one thing I've never done is look at anything to 'check'. I look at what I want to, when I want to, and if I'm looking at it, it's because I darn well want to. Including trans porn. If it don't appeal, don't look at it.