Doubting if this is even H-OCD is this another way it manife

Hey, I believe I’m struggling with H-OCD and A few weeks ago I was having intrusive urges after I’d had a shower, these urges feel real but I felt so anxious and was having so many groinal responses, there was a voice in my head that said, “if a man walked in now and wanted to do it, I’d probably say yes just to try.” Which is completely wrong I would never want to do that and I felt so anxious not happy. My HOCD has latched onto this now and I feel sick with anxiety, I don’t want this, after this happened I went at it with myself to pictures of girls but my brain is telling me I didn’t and I did to men when I didnt, I’m not sure if this even happened. I hate this so much help. I’m doubting is this is even H-OCD, I’m not sure if this is a false memory of that voice because I’m not sure it happened but my brains telling me it did and that must mean I’m gay, when that voice didn’t feel like me and I was very anxious at the time. It’s latched into this and I can’t stop thinking about it and it’s making me sick with anxiety. I don’t want anything with men.

I'm OCD and Bi, and I believe you're struggling with intrusive thoughts. I mean, if they appealed to you at all, they wouldn't be intrusive.

Snaga wrote:I'm OCD and Bi, and I believe you're struggling with intrusive thoughts. I mean, if they appealed to you at all, they wouldn't be intrusive.

Thanks so much for replying! Yeah they disgust me to the point where I lie in bed crying, but my brain seems to be twisting my memories after it happened to me being happy and loving it. I hate this so so so much