HOCD Intrusive thoughts make me ejaculate quicker Im worried

Im a 36 year old male and I lived most of my life 100% sure I am straight but in my mid 20's I discovered that when I masturbate and get intrusive sexual thoughts about other men I ejaculate really quickly. I can ejaculate thinking about women no problem infact I can ejaculate thinking about paint drying but for some reason unwanted thoughts about men make me ejaculate quicker than the gender I am attracted to (women) Other things I should mention is that I am a porn addict I am trying my best not to look at sex scenes online but I cannot resist looking at nude photos of women. I have been looking at porn for over 2 decades and over the years it has caused me to become desensitized my psychologist said its doing me no good looking at sex scenes because I dont get as excited like I used to from soft core porn and it is causing psychological ED. Its been years since I last had a girlfriend my anxiety disorder prevents me from getting back out there. I have always had different kinds OCD (washing hands,checking I stitched off the lights ect) but HOCD started in my mid 20s. I really dont find men sexually attractive I have never had sexual feelings for any men and I never got aroused looking at men. Please dont get me wrong I am not homophobic in any way I am very liberal but the thought of kissing a man or even having sex with another man horrifies me. Do I sound like someone with a textbook example of HOCD? Im scared I might be in denial about being gay. But the weird thing is I dont find other men attractive I have no sexual feelings whatsoever for men. I have only felt sexual attraction towards women and I have a tendency in falling in love with attractive women. But I still worry about why intrusive thoughts about men make me ejaculate quickly while masturbating than when I think about women.

Hello, and welcome!

Well, you have OCD. What has your psychologist said about intrusive thoughts about men?

Try not to pay attention to times to achieve orgasm. Also try not to check- don't think about men unless that's something that excites you. It seems to me that all checking does is to confuse people.

Having said that, as far as having had that happen (ejaculation times and thinking about men) so what? It might be the draw of the Taboo; it might be just having consumed so much porn and being desensitised. You know who does and doesn't sexually interest you, try to keep your mind on that.

Hi Thank You for the reply I really appreciate it.
I just realised my psychologist did mention that they believe the reason I ejaculated to intrusive thoughts about men is because I am so desensitised from watching porn that I dont get the same excitement as I used to. And that they believe that I ejaculated to thinking about men is because thinking about something different as opposed to watching sex scenes with beautiful women with perfect bodies I became numb and lost the excitement. I havent seen my psychologist in years and I have money problems its been so long since I saw them I forgot they told me this. I just remembered after your reply Thanks