what to do?

Hello,
I was first diagnosed with ocd at 16 . I've never talked to others who also suffer from it until now. Here recently I have been obsessing trying to figure out how the world was created and how everything came to exist and its like I can't stop I've been trying to figure this out off and on for years now but recently its gotten worse and it like I can't stop and I lose sleep from it at times.
I just can't shake the feeling that I have to know and I hate not being able to figure it out. I know this isn't healthy but I can't stop. Does anyone else do this or try to figure out the same thing? My mind won't shut off and I feel crazy because i can't let this go I just have to figure it out but at the same time I realize its impossible.
I don't know how to stop obsessing. My mind just keeps going and going

Hello, and welcome to the forums!

Seems to me this would get lumped in with various existential OCD themes. Such as wondering if you- or everything but you- or you and everything else!- is real.

Some things are either unknowable, or knowable only through faith. My faith provides an explanation to the origin of the Universe- if I wanted to, I could easily find myself questioning how God came to be- but I know it's pointless to go down that rabbit hole.

To loosely paraphrase something I'd once heard concerning advanced concepts... it might help for you to remember that you're trying to obsess over the deepest of existential, philosophical & scientific mysteries with an ape brain. That's all we really are- hairless apes that managed to go from rocks to nuclear weapons- but still apes. We're only going to comprehend so much, even if it was laid out in front of us for free.

If it helps also remember this: OCD themes change. They'll burn out. Something else will come along to obsess over.

Do you do anything to help mitigate OCD? Do you take any medications to take the edge off? Do you go to therapy? Self-help exercises?