HOCD Relapse

So I was doing great the last two months I had good talks with my therapist and I avoided testing. I use to get that really fast ejaculation to triggering scenes in porn like so many others have experienced. So I broke off the obsessive testing and just masturbated without porn sometimes and just to porn I liked and to my suprise and relief I did test a few times and could not ejaculate to any triggering images which made me so happy and felt that I had broken the ocd hold on me. That was until the last couple of days I felt doubt creeping back in slowly and I had a hocd dream Thursday night which led me to test Friday morning and bang the quick ejaculation to a trigger came back. I was so hoping that I had beat it but it’s back again even testing today I was masturbating then a bj scene came up in porn and I got the intrusive thought of me giving one and all of a sudden I have to ejaculate even when I stop and go really slow I can feel myself nearly ejaculating which freaks me out. What worry’s me is I don’t feel anxious in the moment so I’m like if i don’t feel anxious maybe I enjoy it. I’m just so annoyed it’s come back and now I’m doubting myself again I hate this

Don't do something you don't want to, and you already have seen the advantages in not 'checking'...

It’s all Groinal responses sometimes it’s false arousal it happens because anxiety can be mistaken for arousal and sometimes Groinal response is unwanted physical arousal the more you check to see if you are aroused you are going to trigger arousal, I know Groinal response can happen even without checking but it’s all OCD, I stopped checking and it all went away in some time.

If you have no anxiety maybe it’s because you brain is trying to protect you from it, by blocking emotions it very common to have no emotions during anxiety. Not feeling anxiety doesn’t mean you like it. Sometimes you may have mental discomfort or pain and no anxiety.

OcdSuffer wrote:It’s all Groinal responses sometimes it’s false arousal it happens because anxiety can be mistaken for arousal and sometimes Groinal response is unwanted physical arousal the more you check to see if you are aroused you are going to trigger arousal, I know Groinal response can happen even without checking but it’s all OCD, I stopped checking and it all went away in some time.

If you have no anxiety maybe it’s because you brain is trying to protect you from it, by blocking emotions it very common to have no emotions during anxiety. Not feeling anxiety doesn’t mean you like it. Sometimes you may have mental discomfort or pain and no anxiety.

Thank you both for your replies means a lot getting feed back on this it can get very lonely dealing with this as it’s not something most people understand.

I’m just worried it’s not groinal response like it’s because I’m enjoying it on some level sexually? It’s just so hard to figure it out like I test to figure out why it happens what makes it happen so quick like I can me masturbating and be hard and all that and as soon as I see a trigger or think it I’ll get straight to ejaculation. Like I said I don’t feel anxious at the time and then sometimes you get that feeling like you enjoy it I know this is common in ocd but it’s always that doubt. The actual thoughts or images don’t get me erect at the start even if I try Iv tried testing to gay porn I think only once something happened with the ejaculation thing but I had myself erect already from straight porn other than that I don’t feel anything towards it and can’t get off to it. It’s just if there’s a bj scene in straight porn I’ll get a sensation in my mouth and I’ll feel like ejaculating.

I hope it will go away again. I just want to beat this now once and for all and I feel like I’m so close to doing that

Groinal response can cause arousal nonconcordance where body and mind are seperate, physically it may feel good because it supposed to feel good this is how we are designed as a human beings, but your mind is having emotional pain because of it. People who are being raped can also have unwanted orgasm.

OcdSuffer wrote:Groinal response can cause arousal nonconcordance where body and mind are seperate, physically it may feel good because it supposed to feel good this is how we are designed as a human beings, but your mind is having emotional pain because of it. People who are being raped can also have unwanted orgasm.

What bothers me is how quickly and easily I can ejaculate due to the thoughts like I can be barely touching myself and I’ll feel like ejaculating.

Iv tried to test the last two days and it’s been good I can’t get to the point of ejaculating at all with the thoughts I’d have to really force it to try and see can I analyze it to figure out what causes it. It’s just such a never ending cycle

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OcdSuffer wrote:Groinal response can cause arousal nonconcordance where body and mind are seperate, physically it may feel good because it supposed to feel good this is how we are designed as a human beings, but your mind is having emotional pain because of it. People who are being raped can also have unwanted orgasm.

What bothers me is how quickly and easily I can ejaculate due to the thoughts like I can be barely touching myself and I’ll feel like ejaculating.

Iv tried to test the last two days and it’s been good I can’t get to the point of ejaculating at all with the thoughts I’d have to really force it to try and see can I analyze it to figure out what causes it. It’s just such a never ending cycle

It’s selective attantion the more you are trying not to get aroused then ocd messed with your brain activating the part of the brain where arousal comes from, on the other hand fight or flight response can cause this as well. Sympathetic nervous system is what causes ejaculation. It’s the same with fight or flight it’s also sympathetic nervous system.

OcdSuffer wrote:It’s selective attantion the more you are trying not to get aroused then ocd messed with your brain activating the part of the brain where arousal comes from, on the other hand fight or flight response can cause this as well. Sympathetic nervous system is what causes ejaculation. It’s the same with fight or flight it’s also sympathetic nervous system.

I don’t know man it’s the one thing I can’t get passed the worse is the lack of anxiety because I’m on medication so then I’m like if it is anxiety that causes the ejaculation why isn’t the meds stopping it?

When I’m masturbating and when I’m trying to get to ejaculation i can be getting off normally then I’ll look or think off a triggering image and that kind of gets me to start of ejaculation if ya get me? So how does something I don’t like cause that? Even when I’m soft and try to get off to an image I feel my penis tensed up then being relaxed.

Also when I’m edging you could say I’ll only be just rubbing my penis with one finger and a triggering image or thought will get me to nearly ejaculate without hardly any effort? I try to replicate it by thinking other thoughts but it’s not as intense or as quick. If I don’t like it why does this happen?

I really want to beat this

Selective attention and feedback on the degree of arousal may increase both blood flow and level of arousal, it happens because you check for arousal.


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