False feelings and sesnsations

When I get intrusive thought or I ruminate about my obssesion I feel no emotions and I get this warm or tingling feeling in my chest and body that I mistake for liking, so Ocd tricks me into thinking that I get this feeling because I like the thoughts or the topic of my ruminations. I hate this so much ! It’s like kind of like false attraction.

I understand that people with OCD can mistake anxiety for arousal, same goes with these feelings in my body. I can feel same tingling or warm feeling when I like something or if I’m nervous or even when I’m anxious but I still belive it means liking. I also mistake not having anxiety for liking as well. There is so many feelings and sensations that I mistake for liking or arousal that it gives me so much mental pain and anxiety that I can’t stand it. Even the positive feeling of not responding and letting the thoughts go, ocd tricks me that this means liking the thought.

I know that this also may be alexythimia which is caused by anxiety and depression. Here is a quote from am Article about this condition by Dr. Timothy Legg .
„ This condition may also make it difficult for a person to interpret body changes as emotional responses. For example, you might have trouble linking a racing heart to excitement or fear, but are still able to acknowledge that you’re experiencing a physiological response in the moment”


I figured this out that the more I check to get a cetrain feeling of disgust, not liking or just a negative feeling to confirm I don’t like these thoughts Ocd blocks these feelings and focuses and creates these false feelings which makes me belive I like these thoughts. Deep in my soul I know I hate these thoughts.