This is driving me insane. *TW*

At this point, I just can't take it anymore. Before I have thought all those past things were OCD, and I have used that as an excuse to say 'So why would it be different now?' and now appearently, my brain thinks all those past things that used to happen to me were OCD and what is happening right now is actually my attraction.
Like how can I stop this? How can I stop it from growing? How can I know I'm not some sort of p? Anymore and I'm gonna be driven insane. Like I'm worried of hearing a story of some p who actually has also got POCD. I would be totally shaken wondering if I was gonna be that p.
Is there a way to calm down OCD? I need to calm it down. Last time, I got a stomachache and I thought it couldn't get any worse. Then I wake up, my brain showed a triggering image and now I'm scared that I'm aroused by it.
I'm really worried that this post would showcase me as a p.

**trigger warnings**

I don't believe a P can also have POCD. Angst, isn't the same thing.

My advice is you have to act as if you don't care what you are. An attitude of not caring is the thing I want to see in you. Call OCD's bluff. Worry about being a pedo, when you've messed with a kid. Not before. You're defined by your actions, not distressing intrusive thoughts.