Was this a groinal response? Idk anymore

I don’t know what this is anymore

Tbh I hate talking about porn on here even though my account might beg to differ but I’d probably have 10x more post if I didn’t care, I just feel like a weirdo when everyone here is talking about real serious problems and I’m just here talking about porn even though it affects me just as much

Anyway, I’ve been told to not watch porn time and time again and I keep saying to myself that I would stop watching it but then I end up going back to it, if I had just listened none of this would have happened. I’m going to tell you guys what bs just happened to me and I really need advice on what to do and how to cope with it, I’ll say this first that I literally just overcame another obsession I had with this theme just for a new one one to form and this happens from time but this is the quickest I’ve ever gained a new obsession and I hate that. So let me tell you guys what happened (Warning going into NSFW details here in case it may trigger you) was it was 3.00 am and I said to myself let me just quickly masturbate (I wish I just went to sleep man this could have all have been avoided), and I told myself just this once and after this I’ll quit watching porn so I read a lesbian comic to be extra safe so that I wouldn’t be triggered by anything and I could have a comfortable session, I even blacklisted certain tags to be extra safe, I thought it would just be a normal day and I could continue on but I was so wrong

So I was scrolling through the comic while doing you know what and I was pretty into it I was happy that my sex drive was finally back and this was a sign of me getting back to normal...then I had to see this one panel...the panel that ruined everything, what I saw was basically a woman with two ball shaped vibrators underneath her pants (I think it was a BDSM thing) and at first glance it looked like she had testicles, the panel came out of nowhere while I was still doing you know what and when I saw it I felt a weird rush of arousal until I stopped myself and was like wtf am I doing???, did I get this arousal because I thought those were balls??? How damn unlucky do I have to be??? I started sweating and shaking and trying to recreate what I just did but it didn’t work I couldn’t analyse that feeling again and it terrified me, does this mean I’m into male genitals? I know it wasn’t what I thought it was but in my head it was. I also sent the panel to my friend and he also thought they looked like testicles too, so that means I basically masturbated to testicles even if they weren’t visually there they were there in my head