does this mean I am a pedopdhile?

So I remember last year a 8 year old girl came to my room to play. She was closing the door for some reason. But I said her to keep the door opened. I thought it was the appropriate thing to do. I thought if I kept the door closed others would doubt me that I am doing bad to the kid. I thought it was the right thing to do.
But now I feel like I did it because I am someone who is capable of sexualizing children.

I mean if I could get that thought that some one will mistaken for me molesting a child, does that mean I thougth it because I am someone who thinks children as someone who is capable of sexualizing children. ,

I never fantasized children sexually, but when I imagine children in a nude manner, my mind is telling me a lot of thougths like hey look a child's private part is exactly look like an adult womens private part when they shave, so you are attracted to them.

I never fantasized about kids, but I feel like I am someone who is capable of sexualizing children. I don't understand. What am I?

cursedforever4312 wrote:I feel like I am someone who is capable of sexualizing children.

I imagine most people are, if they forced the issue. To be Human is to be capable of many unpleasant things- it does not follow that you have a paraphilia that compels you to. Please try not to confuse capability, with an innate desire to do something.