Hair cutting OCD

Hi everyone,
I've been writing on this site before but on the forum for us who suffer from BDD.
My BDD is related to my hair as I'm totally fixated with the way my hair looks, If my hair looks fine I will have a good day, I will feel relaxed and will be able to concentrate and do other important stuff than being bothered with the thought of looking ugly and unpresentable. But if my hair looks ugly to my face then I will have a #######5 day, I will feel depressed and not be able to do things that are way more important, like studying or going to work and I avoid people and don't want to be seen by anyone on the streeets because I look unpresentable.

At this moment I feel so ashamed of what I've done to my hair (I cut it myself) that I don't want to go out and be seen by someone I know. I feel so unattractive, depressed and I feel so jealous of all the people I meet in my daily life like my parents and sibilings and people I meet outside as they all look great, like the way they always to in their haircuts (no one is stupid enough to try to cut it themselves like I do). Everyone is enjoying this month and living their lifes like they always do, everyone but me, who was stupid enough to cut my hair too short...!!!

However, the reason I'm writing here on the OCD forum is because I'm wondering if this behaviour of always wanting to cut and correct my own hair is a form of OCD? My parents tell me to stop cutting my hair and just let it grow but it's so easy for them to say. The hair grows so slow and the only way for me to reduce the anxiety and to feel a little better is to stand infront of the mirror and cut it some millimeters here and there. Then I might feel a little calmer because my hair atleast look a little better that moment, but then I usually want to cut more and more as I stand infront of the mirror and usually find other places that needs to be cutted. Today I haven't cut as my hair is to short and I can't see how I could cut it anymore. But I feel so unsatisfied with the way it looks and feels so ashamed of how I look in my haircut that I can barely go outside the house and be seen by anyone. It really sucks. I'm 24 and I don't want to sit here and feel depressed because of my hairut looks but this is how it is at the moment.

Can anyone relate to this fixation with hair and hair cutting behviour?

I think there's probably overlap between OCD behaviours and other things, such as BDD.

In the case of OCD there's usually a specific fear, however. That the compulsion is meant to ease.

If I didn't drive to work a certain route, listening to certain music, then I would think that work was going to be terrible (work often was). A compulsion to stem a fear.

Is there.... a specific fear, or is it you can't stand the look of your hair unless it is 'just right'.

And what is the worst thing that can happen to you?

Also- what is wrong with short hair? It can be quite charming, on both sexes. Could you not go somewhere and get it evened up or shaped into something cute?