I feel like I don't deserve to do the things I love

I suffer from (what I hope is just) POCD. That is, OCD centered around pedophilia. As you can probably imagine, it's basically a living hell with the intrusive thoughts and often feeling like I really am the monster I fear I am because it just feels so damn real... It's made me very depressed and scared, even after seeing a counselor for several months now.

So, because I tend to worry I'm a pedophile, I often feel guilty for doing certain things I enjoy: Watching anime, cartoons and movies, writing, posting my art, even talking with my friends. I feel like I don't deserve to have fun doing those things, even though they don't involve children whatsoever.

Has anyone else experienced this?