by WhyDoIExist » Fri Mar 13, 2020 11:39 am
So, I feel like an update is in order..
A couple of days ago, I woke up in the middle of the night to an intrusive image, and it felt like I liked it. Panicked, I made the terrible decision to focus on it (surprise surprise, it was a child's vu*va again). And, well, it genuinely felt like I was attracted to it. In fact, I'm still worried that I am attracted to it..
I was terrified, to say the least. I've never wanted to die more than I did that night.
Now, I naturally told my parents via note (they were asleep when I woke up, and I didn't want to disturb them), and my mother told me she was sorry I felt bad, and that she still doesn't believe I'm a pe**phile.
I hope she's right.