Old ocd resurfaced or i m bad

Hi guys. I m 33 year old male. I was diagnosed with pocd in 2014. Did ERP and anti depressants for 3 years. I became alright for 5 years.
Now again things are turning worse. My wife became very un loving towards me. I requested her to love me. But she was busy. She used to hurt me emotionally. I got attracted towards a colleague and we got involved physically..
Now i feel that i want to have sex with every beautiful lady. Same pocd kind thoughts coming again that i want to have sex with children and all females. I look at females sexually. I feel disgust over my attitude. I aant to be a good man. I almost feel that i have become a monster. I feel depressed. I want to become same old good man who had nothing to do with other females than my wife.
Thanks

Saw this languishing in the wrong forum- please be sure to post in OCD, not OCPD- a completely different thing! I have moved it and am bumping it to the top, by asking you how you're feeling now?

Re: your unwanted pedophilic thoughts surfacing: it's not what thoughts you have that makes you a bad person, but what you do with those thoughts. Someone could have all the pedophilic thoughts in the world and still be completely fine if they remain in their head, which yours most likely have.

As for your cheating, while I won't tell you you shouldn't have separated from your wife or addressed your needs (possibly in therapy) before you did it, I will say that I completely understand the reason why. You needed intimacy, so you sought it out elsewhere. That's understandable.