Fear of being a child molester(OCD)

I have compulsively checking lately by reading erotic adult/child molestation stories meant for pedos and pictures of naked kids, I am getting groinal responses sometimes. Other times I don't. What if I enjoy this? I am probably getting the impulse to masturbate to kids again and it is freaking me out. I am afraid I like little girl's butts and vulvas!!

I also get intrusive thoughts of becoming a child molester or wanting to become one. Like I am afraid I will get comfortable with these thoughts and become a child molester. I am not scared of these thoughts or as worried as I was. Does this mean I will become one? I don't want to become one. I get thoughts telling me its okay to be one, but I know it's not.

I am jealous at society because they are normal and I am not, why did I masturbate to naked kids when I was 12-13? Why did I even think or want to do that? I am not turned on by it! Why am I such a curse?
What am I?

What you described is similar to my story. Honestly, the only reason why I believe there's a chance I'm a pedo is due to me waking up as a 13 year old, most pedos wake up to find this weird feeling. I fear that I'm a pedo due to that.

I don't wanna be a pedo, the idea of having your friends only pedos who you don't trust, while fantasizing about messed up stuff is gross. I just hope it's POCD at work.

Have you looked up ERP? it works really well and i recommend doing that. It has helped me alot.