I hate myself

I have real event ocd/pure O i can't stop thinking about how i used to be manipulative and inappropriate towards someone and I hate myself so much. I feel so terrible about it i'm going to have a heart attack from the stress and guilt i feel so awful i'm so sorry

We can beat ourselves up pretty good, I know I can, but at some point, you have to forgive yourself and try to break that obsessive loop, and let it go.

Don't beat yourself up over this. The fact that you feel terrible now proves that you've grown as a person and wouldn't do it again. I myself have bullied a kid when I was younger and if I would meet my younger self now I'd just slap him across the face and tell him to quit it.