i have ocd im worried i might touch a child or worse

theone5800 wrote: if i think something bad will happen is it still ocd.

That's pretty much all we do, isn't it? Think something bad will happen? It's our superpower...

No one else has said anything it must be bad.

or, they have nothing to say... which isn't the same thing. OCD is very hard to argue with, and you can't reason with it, if we were being rational about our fears, we wouldn't be here in the first place. I know I can say the same thing, only so many ways. ultimately, we each have to jump off the carousel of thought after thought after thought in this vicious spiral of anxiety, and just say You know what? screw it if I'm this or that, don't care, I'm saying I'm not, until my actions- not thoughts, actions with other people something you can point to- prove otherwise.

Been like this for 17 years I was going along fine for years no problems really until I got really stressed and worried about my benefits.Then all the anxiety came back and being too aware of children.

Well.... see....

After two or three decades, I finally figured if I hadn't killed anyone (intrusive harm thoughts), then... I must be pretty in control of my actions.

17 years sounds to me, if you were gonna Bad Touch, you'd be Bad Touchin' by now...

I think, we think, that if we can imagine something, and are capable physically of the act (shooting someone, touching a kid wrong), we equate that with that it must happen, as if we were possessed, or mindless automatons. Despite all those years of not having done anything, right there, in the rear view mirror.

Every time I get a thought to harm or kill - intrusive thoughts I've had since childhood - I have to force myself to have faith, in myself, that it's ocd, it's not me, I'm not done monster. And neither are you.