Terrified Of My Transsexual And Paedophile Thoughts!

I AM COMPLETELY TERRIFIED.

My thoughts are destroying my life and I can’t cope with them anymore.

They are making my life a LIVING HELL!

This is far too much for me to cope with and I can’t put up with anymore.

The thoughts are in my head for so much of the day.

I am scared I have gender dysphoria and that I’m going to become a woman. These thoughts terrorise me and are destroying my life. I just want them to go away. I can’t cope with all these horrible scary thoughts in my head all day.

I think about this all the time and it is terrifying me.

I just want the thoughts to go away.

I have even recently had an uncomfortable feeling on my chest and I am scared this is a sign of gender dysphoria.

This is terrifying me and destroying my life.

I get so many thoughts related to this and having my penis removed or damaged and they are horrible and scary.

I want this to go away so I can carry on living my life.

I don’t want to become a woman, please don’t make me

I just want to carry on being a man. I want these thoughts to go away.

I also have POCD in addition to this and that is also scary and disgusting.

I just want all this to go away.

I really can’t handle it and I have nowhere to turn really.

This is destroying my life and I’ve had enough.

I don’t know what to do when this is really bad.

I am trying to carry on with what I’m doing and I’m doing some mindfulness activities and the one where you look for five red things and then five sounds and five things you can feel.

It can help for a while but I am still terrified by my mind.

The thoughts can be ridiculous. Earlier today I chopped some pineapple and wrapped it in tinfoil and then I had a thought that I should remove my dick and then use the tinfoil shape as a pretend one, like wtf. I don’t want this $#%^ in my head

I am currently on a waiting list for therapy:

I have read lots of books on the topic of ocd treatment and I am currently doing some ERP but my overall day to day experience hasn’t really improved yet.

I am scared I am really a transsexual. I don’t want to be. I just want these thoughts to end.

Please please please make this hell stop.

I can’t take it anymore

When I get the thoughts I try agreeing with them, saying maybe it’s true and sometimes I lean into them but it’s only a limited effectiveness.

I don’t know what else to do.

I am scared this isn’t really ocd and my thoughts are true.

I can’t handle this and I have never where to turn.

I just need help.

I want this hell to stop.

I know, it's rough. Just have to remind yourself, you're not. Not a whole lot else you can do, there's no.. magic thought that can make the fears go away. Remember that OCD is a fraud and a liar.