I thought my Hocd was gone...

Thank you I think that’s one thing I haven’t done

RottenFish wrote:Try not to give your HOCD too much power. The more attention and power you give your HOCD, the more "gay" you will feel. Just realize they are thoughts, and not reality.

I often think of OCD as an imp who has taken up squatting rights in my head. It lives on fear. The more fear I give it, the stronger it grows. The less fear I give it, the weaker it gets. Not that I'm good at doing it, mind you- but the goal is to keep it on a starvation diet. You can't kick it out- but you can keep it starved and weakened.

Thank you for your help both of y’all I’m really giving this nofap thing a try now I’m two days and I can see how the porn has affected my thinking, two days feels like a week without testing myself yes I know these emotions aren’t real these gay ones I know they’re forced and induced by me and ocd and these feelings I have for that girl aren’t forced they’re real I know it’s gonna take time to recover but I think with her I will because when I’m around her the gay thoughts are gone everything is so I’m taking that step now I pray it works

I’m sorry for wasting y’all time I am in fact gay, I did masturbation and my head said think of a dude and it’s like a quick smirk came on said I went through with it and went to gay porn it was hard to stay erected but I imagined a dude the images would come and go with a girl but with the dude it’s like I could I was enjoying it with the girl a disgusted face I don’t feel regret rn idk what made me finish tbh but I just know I am now so I’m sorry

jbell777 wrote:I just did something stupid I watched porn, I didn’t want too but I kinda just got my heart broke by the girl, and so too keep the pain away I went to lesbian porn I got turned and my desire for women was there which was nice but no matter it just like I’m trying to keep a girl there cause I feel the image of a dude come in, I just feel like it’s a dude making you know

I'd recommend that you stop watching and fantasizing about F/F porn. There's nothing to miss once you quit. I'd also recommend that you stop watching porn that involves any actual sex in general between real people. Also, fantasizing about a man and a woman making love and feeling a sexual reaction in yourself is normal.

When daydreaming about a superhero, a king, or a warrior, whether that person is you or not, you make that character reflect yourself. You form a connection with that character. He often thinks like you do, and does what you would do. The same goes for fantasizing about a woman and a man having sex. You feel what he feels, and it draws you in. Just because there is a man involved doesn't make you interested in the man himself. You want to be that man. You can imagine what he is feeling. You both want the same thing. This is why you may feel yourself having a slight sexual reaction.

Sometimes, thoughts are so distressing that our brains don't let us think about them, even if we try forcing it upon ourselves. That is an actual phenomenon that has been documented. This may include sexual things we find repulsive, so people literally can't imagine distressing sexual thoughts. Their mind forces them not to. We were designed in such a way, and we will use it to our advantage.

Heed this information and advice well. I hope it helps.

Thanks man I know I need too I I’m gonna try my best

Guys I gotta problem I’m falling in love with this girl, and I want this hocd gone I went on another date with her and I was crying like wtf I started crying holding hand I’ve never done that and every time she holds me it’s like wow and we kissed for the first time and it was the best kisses I’ve ever known I was trying to hold myself back from falling but I knew when I started talking to her it was gonna happen and as y’all see on my previous post she makes me happy man damn I stopped the porn and masturbation but the thoughts roll feel real