Still HOCD ? Consequence of HOCD ?

Hello everyone.

At the beginning of the year, my OCD was getting better (I'm a sufferer for almost two years). Sexual attraction returned, intrusive thoughts became a little rarer, in short, my situation improved. I understood that I was not and would never be attracted to men (except because of the false attractions due to OCD which seemed to be attractions)
From one day to the next, a feeling / an impression invades me. The feeling of not finding girls attractive anymore. So I started looking at pictures of girls every day. And obviously, the more I tested myself, the less attractive I found them. The anxiety being always there, I continue. Again and again. I was afraid it never would have been OCD or it wouldn't be anymore, but you don't lose your attraction overnight, right? It's been like this for almost six months now.
These last few days my attraction for girls has returned very slightly, but it's gone again. I have almost no intrusive thoughts at all, but I'm still afraid.

Anxiety has always been there for several months, every day, almost all the time (it calms down when I'm busy).

I'm afraid it's an OCD sequel, that my physical attraction that I've always felt for women never comes back, or never fully.

Will my attraction return entirely?
Should I consider this feeling of loss of physical attraction as an intrusive thought?
How do we get her back?

I've been scared for six months, every day. Two or three days ago my attraction returned very slightly, the anxiety was calmed, but it starts again. I'm afraid I'll never get out, afraid my physical attraction to women will never come back, afraid it'll be an OCD sequel. Please, help me. Please.

*What I mean by loss of physical attraction:

Feeling that I no longer find women beautiful, I find flaws where there were none, I doubt my attractions, I sometimes have the impression of forcing them.

I want to apologize for my English, it's not my first language.

The feeling of not finding girls attractive anymore. So I started looking at pictures of girls every day. And obviously, the more I tested myself, the less attractive I found them.

I think everyone that suffers from this experience the same loss of attraction towards their preferred sex.

Should I consider this feeling of loss of physical attraction as an intrusive thought?

This has been a question for me, also. When I talk to my psychiatrist I feel as if I'm making things look nicer or "not so real" if I call them intrusive thoughts. Because I believe they are not intrusive and are my actual feelings that I try to deny. And they are not just thoughts, they are real feelings.

I've been scared for six months, every day. Two or three days ago my attraction returned very slightly, the anxiety was calmed, but it starts again.

3 years into it, I have ups and downs and I'm more and more sure it's all real. But your case seems more like OCD than mine. I'm probably in denial.

Also, maybe I should add that I have moments where I'm 100% sure that I am gay/bi but can't accept it. And I have moments where I think that maybe I'm not, but those moments end instantly when I think of a guy and begin checking. Which means that I'm probably only denying it when I can ignore it.

My psychiatrist also talks to me as if she thought I was gay. She asked me whether I fell in love with a guy before. I said no and she answered "Well that comes with time."
I was like "######6 great."