Faking my OCD?

Recently I stopped taking my medicine after I was released from the hospital. I've been feeling not the best but my compulsions and obsessions are taking a full control over me. I've been so scared about the possibility that I lied to myself. That I tricked myself about my diagnosis. I can't stop thinking about that. I keep telling myself that just because it's not as bad as it has been before that it doesn't mean I don't have OCD. But what if? Does anyone else worry about this?

Yes, all the time. I feel like OCD is one way of denying my real sexuality. Even if I do have OCD, that doesn't mean I'm not gay or bisexual. In fact, I'm more and more sure I actually am that. I just want to deny it because I'm scared most likely

Well they say OCD is the doubting disease, so it seems the most natural thing in the world, to doubt you have OCD....