False Memory OCD *Please read*

So lately I've been feeling very depressed, confused and in mental pain. I'm very scared and upset. I wake up and I've had to start at square one. So basically I want to know if this is a false memory or actually happened. I spent a whole month of March and a bit of April going over memories and trying to make myself feel better. I finally got over this memory and I felt happy then all of a sudden my head said "you're a child molester" "you're disgusting" so I went over everything and to my disgust "remembered something from about May-june. And at start I felt like I innapropruatemy touched my sister when I was younger and at the time this was my biggest fear and I only had this faint and unbelievable memory of the touching and then I kept thinking and now I'm just remembering details which I think are false cause how could I possibly pick up on them? And these "memories" are so vivid and detailed I even remember "thinking" about it after but I'd be disgusted wouldn't I? This is just OCD isn't it? At times I think of course this is a false memory and then get relieved and then ocd comes and bites me by saying "how can you be sure?" "You must have done this, why would you think it?" Because I know I was a little horndog when I was younger and got into por n but I know I NEVER thought of doing this especially premeditated. I hate this. I feel like I want to tell my parents or sister but I don't want them worry or get upset because I'm not sure this even happened and would just cause harm. I want them happy but what can I do if thats how I am? The only thing I think I "remember" is touching but that seems like I've imagined it as it's just an image like it isn't even me. I can't remember the feeling or anything just that it can't have been long like 3 seconds but why would I even do that? I can't even remember the lead up or What I could be thought or seeing anything just a bad feeling in my head I did it after constant thinking it seems so real and I can't find out. I'm so scared. What do you think? Has this actually happened cause I will be prepared give myself in to the police without a shadow of a doubt and I love my sister, could I have done this? I also think memories are merging. Btw this is the only time ice thought about this and felt bad so that makes me think it didn't happen? Please help.

Please someone reply. I'm really struggling.

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Hey friend. I created my account specifically to respond to this post. You seem very distressed, and I don’t think you should be. It seems to be the rule that if you think you’re dealing with an invented “memory”, you are. Recollection is linear. Memories can fade over time, but they cannot suppress themselves and then suddenly reveal themselves spontaneously years later. If the event you’re worried about happened, there would be no doubt in your mind. I have no authority to diagnose anyone, but what you’ve described indeed sounds like false memory OCD. I suffer from it myself, and someone who’s helped me understand what’s going with my mind is an expert on YouTube by the name of Ali Greymond so I recommend checking her stuff out. Please take care, friend. You are not alone.

Hey man, I was the poster of this post but I’ve forgotten my password haha. How does False memory work, can I remember false feelings? My entire memory is full of doubt and I can’t even string the memory together, it’s just distorted images and it’s causing so much stress. Mainly because I feel like I remember feeling something if that makes sense. It’s so hard man