You all with POCD are so brave

I have to say right now: I think I have POCD. I'm incredibly scared by saying that, I think even admitting it means I'm going to be arrested (for real). Looking at your posts gives me anxiety. I'm incredibly anxious right now. I'm afraid a mind reader or a family member will somehow find out I'm typing this. I'm afraid the word "pedophile" will turn me on. But I'm trying to learn more about this, and I'm hoping that hearing your stories will make me feel like less of a freaking deviant sociopath. I'm hoping that looking at your posts is some kind of solo, therapist-less exposure therapy. I feel like I've seen enough for today after looking at, like, two posts and I have to log off. Thank you for telling your stories. They scare me, but I think they'll help me accept myself in the long run. I'm still incredibly scared right now. Thank you for that.