dpdr vs OCD

Ok guys I just made a post that explained a lot of symptoms but it's not up yet. I just thought of this too which I didn't include in the post.

One of my biggest obsessions is with depersonalization/ derealization. I've been convinced that I've had it for a long time now even though I don't truly even fit the description of it, but it was the closest thing to what I've been experiencing so I went with it. I truly believed it too and even told my close friend and parents about it.

Basically I feel like I'm out of it all the time and it makes me feel extremely frustrated. I feel like I'm not actively participating in the world, like I'm behind a screen or a cloud of smoke. this especially effects my vision. I feel like I'm not seeing everything like everyone else, like I'm not taking anything in, or am somehow blind or inhibited. It drives me absolutely insane and I often obsess about the fact that I'm not fully experiencing life. I've gone to more than one eye appointment where they told me my vision was fine, stayed up reading articles and watching youtube videos, gotten convinced it was due to technology addiciton, etc. I have no idea how long this has been going on, but I think it's been more than a year. I'm very confused about the timeline of my life in general and feel that this disconnected feeling is also the reason for that. My memory is very bad.

Now I'm wondering if I'm not truly experiencing derealization and I've just gotten into another obsession that is manifesting itself strongly.
When I told my parents about it they had no idea what I was talking about and basically said I wasn't making any sense (in a nice way) and my mom even told me I might be psyching myself into it. My parents are generally really understanding and tolerant so their responses make me feel like I just sounded like a crazy over-analyzing person.
When I look away from the computer screen, I'm immediately frustrated. It seems like what I'm looking at isn't real. Yet, i don't know what "real" would look like. I wish I could just leave these thoughts behind, but I don't know if I'm actually suffering or if I'm seeing the same world everyone else is. It really seems like an insane thought, and what I experience isn't exactly like DPDR, I don't think.

Anyone else with DPDR? Just looking for thoughts or opinions. I know either way obsessing is only hindering me. I'm just frustrated and confused.

Dear cherry,

The symptoms do seem like dpdr, i have ocd since i was a kid, i experienced two episodes of dpdr for almost an year, it was awful. Intervened with my work, i had to quit, since i couldn't cope there anymore, i stayed in home for 6 months depleting my saving doing nothing. Later i acquired a job in a small concern through reference, i had to literally push myself out of my home to go and attend the interview. DP is a terrible experience, its like half awake half dreaming, but my dpdr symptoms reduced when i started to work again, when i got physically active, when i started going out. staying inside, surfing the web, over thinking will only make it worse. also medication helped as well for my anxiety and depression. its been a year, i haven't experienced a dpdr episode, even if i experience, i believe it wont have the stronghold it once used to have. anxiety is the underlying cause for dpdr, especially ocd people are more prone to dpdr, i would suggest taking the right medication, going out, socializing, doing things you like, do job that you like(which doesnt make you too stressful).

While experiencing dpdr, we may have doubt whether we actually experiencing it or not, i believe this doubt is quite common, i have had these symptoms (feeling a stranger when looking at mirror, memory lapses, unable to recollect, unable to experience pleasure or be happy, unmotivated, wanting to stay in house, having existential crisis, thinking bizzare thoughts like the origin of the universe, what is reality, what happens after death.)