Is it hocd anymore

Hey guys my hocd has turned to arousal when I get these images in my head it started yesterday I originally got erected to a girl but now I guess I’ve forced the images so much by testing myself I’m scared I won’t get hard to a girl anymore, the night before I had sex with a girl it was good, I know if I was gay I wouldn’t of wanted sex with a girl but now the arousal it don’t feel like me, other ocd’s in the past weren’t bad as this...and when I’m convinced I’m gay or bi all I think about is will I ever love women again I just want my life back

I need help now it’s like all I get erected to is the image of a guy, gay porn don’t turn me on, and I was bout to see if a girl wanted to go on a date but I felt I was doing bc I wanna see if women still turn me on, I mean I was taking to her on the phone maybe that helped with the erection idk and it wasn’t really even a full one or one in that matter

Hi Jbell777,

It sure sounds like hocd to me.
I have been struggling in the past with hocd for 4 years (now cured) which was caused by accumulated stress. What you are describing is exactly how I was feeling/thinking at the time.

You can spot hocd in following ways:
- continuously checking if you are aroused by gay porn, while it is not turning you on
- continuously trying to see if you are attracted to your fellow male friends
- unable to watch porn when a guy is involved in a porn scene
- comparing your level of attraction with girls vs boys
- feeling threatened when seeing a muscular man
- comparing yourself with people who "suddenly" discovered that they were gay later in life, while they actually already had these feeling when they were very young
- having fear of getting involved in an affair with a male

While there is nothing wrong with being gay, just remember that someone who is gay, will never be so concerned about these feelings. As these feelings are natural just like you are attracted to girls. They might however be concerned about what other people (family, friends, ..) might think when they come out.

Hope this helps

Kind regards,
InvisibleMind

invisiblemind wrote:Hi Jbell777,

It sure sounds like hocd to me.
I have been struggling in the past with hocd for 4 years (now cured) which was caused by accumulated stress. What you are describing is exactly how I was feeling/thinking at the time.

You can spot hocd in following ways:
- continuously checking if you are aroused by gay porn, while it is not turning you on
- continuously trying to see if you are attracted to your fellow male friends
- unable to watch porn when a guy is involved in a porn scene
- comparing your level of attraction with girls vs boys
- feeling threatened when seeing a muscular man
- comparing yourself with people who "suddenly" discovered that they were gay later in life, while they actually already had these feeling when they were very young
- having fear of getting involved in an affair with a male

While there is nothing wrong with being gay, just remember that someone who is gay, will never be so concerned about these feelings. As these feelings are natural just like you are attracted to girls. They might however be concerned about what other people (family, friends, ..) might think when they come out.

Hope this helps

Kind regards,
InvisibleMind

I'm 31 and have suffered HOCD for 12 years. It's a constant struggle.

I agree mines has been and thank you the post helps, I just hate it cause sometimes makes me feel I fine women parts gross now but when my ocd. Ain’t working I’m enjoying the sexual things again with women, I just wish ocd would go away, especially hocd it’s tuff but ik deep down I’m still straight, I mean if I was gay I still wouldn’t be checking out girls liek I do in public, I even trying swiping right on tinder to guys and I couldn’t do it didn’t feel right at all, it’s not me, and every I tell my mom which she’s helped me a lot through this she’s like you have gross look on your face talking about it, and she says it feeding off your anxiety and constantly testing yourself which I know is true at times but thank y’all really glad to know I’m not alone

It’s even gone after masturbation too like ik thinkn bout girl but my head turns it to a dude and I’ll let it not bother me but it always does ik it’s turned it too a dude bc I’ve forced the Images so much but I also know Ik I’m thinkn bout a girl over the guy in the back of my mind and that the only way I can finish is if a girl somewhere in my mind, and it’s like girl make me lose arousal now I just feel and sound gay maybe I need to try accept or maybe it’s my head everyone says I have ocd it’s just hard to believe sometimes

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It’s even gone after masturbation too like ik thinkn bout girl but my head turns it to a dude and I’ll let it not bother me but it always does ik it’s turned it too a dude bc I’ve forced the Images so much but I also know Ik I’m thinkn bout a girl over the guy in the back of my mind and that the only way I can finish is if a girl somewhere in my mind, and it’s like girl make me lose arousal now I just feel and sound gay maybe I need to try accept or maybe it’s my head everyone says I have ocd it’s just hard to believe sometimes