Hocd and hypochondria

So I haven’t posted on here in a while because for a little bit I was doing okay. Just within the last month my HOCD and hypochondria has come back extra bad. It’s affecting my friendships and my schoolwork and it’s just so frustrating! Hocd wise, I hadn’t had any issues for a couple months. Yes the thoughts were still in my head but I was able to ignore them much easier. A few weeks ago I watched this video and it had lesbians in it and there I was right back in the cycle. I almost forgot how real the thoughts feel. It’s almost worse this time around because although the thoughts other me a lot they don’t always cause me anxiety which makes me worry about not having anxiety and causes me to be anxious ( if that makes sense). I mean right now I have a crush on my boss (fml) but my mind keeps telling me I have a crush on my best friend which seems believable because everytime she hangs out with someone else it genuinely makes me angry and sad. I’m just so worried she is going to abandon me for other people and I turn into such a diva because of that. I’m also super jealous of her in general cuz she is prettiee, smarter, and all around a better person than me and it sucks!! I’m regards to the hypochondria, one day I felt a tingling in my hand and it was numb for a few seconds and now I’m convinced I have every disease in the book. I’m just so overwhelmed right now. Like do I have a crush on my best friend? Am I a lesbian? Am I dying? I don’t want any of those things! I just needed to post here because the people on these forums are the only ones that understand how I feel even if it’s just a little bit. I’m sorry this is so long/:. Please message me if you feel you can help me in any way!

Hello I'm a 31 year old male and suffered HOCD for 12 years. I too have spiked when I see nice looking members of the same sex. In college, I had a room mate that was nice looking and I would spike when I saw him. We didn't get along and my mind told me I had a crush on him. This lead to a spiral of doubt from August 2006-April 2007. I still spike from time to time, but I try not to give these thoughts validity. Ultimately, this is a mental issue, not a sexual orientation issue.

I'm not a mental health professional and I always recommend that everyone suffering from OCD seek professional help. You should seek treatment from a therapist that specializes in OCD. That being said, self-help books written by psychologists and psychiatrists is the second best thing you can do.

* With regards to your fear of dying, I wouldn't worry about your tingling hand. Still, if it persists, consider seeing your primary care physician.