Does this sound like ocd? I’m terrified

wsdNn wrote:Dude i think you did not understad the way ocd works. Ocd can create false memories and it did when i had hocd i remebered a memory that i wanted to have sex with my bestfriend and like this it can create false memories about being transgender people with tocd also thinks that they were always trans secretly and they did not realize it i also think like that my brain always goes for a proof that i am trans and i am searching for proof that i am not trans and we are fighting in my mind all day long but its not a fair fight because brain has the ability of controling emotions and thoughts also feelings and it scares me i know that i am not trans becuse i never wanted to be woman even when i learned that my cousin was trans 7 months ago but ocd kills you and manipulates you its the worst torture ever because nobody can solve this except you people can just support but you are alone...

I understand) false memories and other stuff, and i still think gender fluidity is a myth, again if thoughts are bringing you discomfort they can't be real.

Yes thougts are discomforting but people with ocd doubting even about this. When you say if you feel discomfort with trans feelings it means you are not trans. Then i am doubting are these feelings really discomforting me ? And returning the circle of doubting. I dont know what is real emotion amd what i want really because of doubting everything...

wsdNn wrote:Dude i think you did not understad the way ocd works. Ocd can create false memories and it did when i had hocd i remebered a memory that i wanted to have sex with my bestfriend and like this it can create false memories about being transgender people with tocd also thinks that they were always trans secretly and they did not realize it i also think like that my brain always goes for a proof that i am trans and i am searching for proof that i am not trans and we are fighting in my mind all day long but its not a fair fight because brain has the ability of controling emotions and thoughts also feelings and it scares me i know that i am not trans becuse i never wanted to be woman even when i learned that my cousin was trans 7 months ago but ocd kills you and manipulates you its the worst torture ever because nobody can solve this except you people can just support but you are alone...

I totally agree with you wsdNn, ocd can play with your thoughts and memories, I never thought ankh this wanting to be a woman but whenever I ask myself that question I think “well maybe I did and I don’t remember” or “I used to like playing as female characters in video games so it means that there was already something wrong with me” (not saying that being trans isn’t wrong of course). And also I understand the feeling of hopelessness, I feel like I should just accept it and maybe I’ll be happy but I don’t want to but every day it gets a bit worse I feel like I’m going to crumble and I’m gonna lose who I am. Also what you wrote about your cousin being trans could that be the cause of your ocd obsession? Maybe your brain was looking for something to latch on to and that was the perfect occasion. Also my best wishes for you

Firstly thanks for your support and i am sorry to hear that you are struggling with the same problem its like being in hell in my mind i dont want to be woman and i dont have a desire for being women, never had. But this feelings like i am trans and feel weird about my genital. I call it weird becuase i can not describe the feeling its just weird like i feel i should not have a penis but then i say ok lets say i am trans and thinking myself as woman and its just feels so wrong like its not me its not what i want to be.
Then i think if i dont want to be woman then why i feel like this about my genital and it goes all day long but when i am doing something with my friends this feeling goes away somehow then a thought pops or something triggers me and i feel my genital and this feelings comes back what i wanna know is —— Can ocd make me feel weird about my genital feel like i dont want it???—— i know ocd can do many things because i had experience about hocd 1 month ago it felt like i really have a desire to have a sex with same sex and it felt real too believe me it felt real AF. But now my hocd gone suddenly and trans ocd came now i know i dont want to have sex with man and i know i love girls no doubts also my hocd compulsions are gone. I am not checking myself by looking other man like i did before my hocd compulsions replaced by tocd compulsions like checking myself as woman if i like it or thinking if i have vagina instead of penis or staring my genital are to check what i feel and i feel like trans all the day it kills me... suicide , suicide and suicide if this won’t go away i have to kill myself being woman is not even an option for me

WsdNn ocd can do a lot of bad stuff as you said including making you feel like you don’t want your genitals to be there, I don’t have that but I can only imagine the struggles you have to go through. Also if it could make you feel better I too have sensation that are weird but like in my head, what I mean is that my thoughts aren’t like “oh i want to be a woman” or “oh god I want a vagina” but are more like “what if you are trans?” You know what I mean?

Yes my therapist said that ocd can make me even feel like i want to be woman. Its evil but difference between trans people and me when they think about being opposite sex they enjoy it but i dont its scary and wrong to me i get better today after i talked with my therapist and she said compulsions are feeding ocd. I have to stop compulsions but my compulsions are mental not physical and mental compulsions are harder to stop but anyway i got way better today i hope we will be good with time

I think you're on the right track to bettering yourself! I have tocd too and it's been very hard these past couple of months. Sometimes ocd makes your body feel so, off, like your mind starts to construct these superstitious beliefs that if you do certain things you'll be staving off the inevitable (even though it isn't inevitable to begin with) like for me if I cover up my arms long enough then if I look at them the next time I will start to feel very weird about them whereas before all this happened i really didn't pay much attention to them!

Ocd is evil dude it can do many things and its so powerful we need to stop thinkimg and we should move on our lifes