My OCD is ruining my college career

Hello,

MY OCD is ruining my career!!!

I'm an electrical engineering major who's contemplating dropping out because I cannot, no matter how hard I try, due my work without OCD intervening.

Whenever I'm programming, I have this nagging feeling of having to reinvent the wheel. I can't program in high-level languages, like C, C++, JAVA, etc. Whenever I try to, I have to constantly ask myself about what goes on at the transistor level when I'm running a program. It drives me mad!

We're taught to use languages like VHDL and Verilog to create what will become circuits. I struggle with these language not because they're inherently difficult, but because I have to know what goes on at the lowest level.

Please, can anyone relate or offer suggestions?

I think you talk to a school counselor about your OCD and try to get have them help you. Reveal every detail to them in so they can help you to the best of their ability. Also, try talking to your professors/instructors about your OCD and problems in so they could be more lenient on you. That is the only suggestion that I can think of.

I'm sorry if I couldn't help.