HOCD Anymore? Please Help!

I have been dealing with intrusive thoughts and feelings for months now, but my question is can OCD actually feel like you would enjoy the thoughts?

This was all brought on by me questioning whether or not I would want to kiss a man, my initial gut reaction was no. However I still went on to mentally check if I wanted to do it. Again at first I wanted nothing to do with it, but in the checking I would never let my lips touch the other guys. This thought got thrown at me and of course I had to check. Now when I checked to this I felt this warm feeling in my face and in my lips, and it made me super anxious to the point where I shook and couldn't eat or sleep for a few days. When I finally got some sleep I ended up kissing a guy in my dream, and I got the same warm feeling and it made me wake up and felt like I want to throw up. Deep down I know I don't want to kiss a guy but now it feels like I would like it and its killing me.

Is this still HOCD?