p ocd

i think am a paedophile i have thoughts of abusing children it in my head over and over its gotten to the point where i feel suicidal am christian Jesus must be testing me but these thoughts are so bad i have a 2 year old niece that i see sometimes i cant see her now ...i dont trust myself other thing is i was abused as a child so i know how bad peados can be

i should die to stop me from doing anything my husband is here i need to die

WOW NO ONE GIVES A ###$
...THANKS A LOT

Hello. I would say seek a therapist. Christian psychologist are fairly prevalent now, so you may want to consider consulting a faith based practice.

I'm sorry that you were abused as a child. However, you don't sound like someone that wants to mess with children. You don't want to mess with children and it's obvious that these are intrusive thoughts.