New dillema

i've went trough hocd and many other obsessions now a relatively new one settled in.
few days ago i've noticed a tiny bit enlarged lymph node still within normal boundaries and yet i've started panicking so much that i fainted for the first time in my life(after reading online what could it be i got terrified at the notion of lymphoma).
this perfectly describes my overreaction to stress in the past few months.
and now the checking started every day i consistently monitor myself for signs of any symptoms, google every single one i can perceive, every single thing that appears on my body is a cause for dread even as saw a mere scratch somehow i got it in my head that i felt itchy there even if i didn't and that i scratched it till it bled.
since i've read itching is one of the symptoms i've felt itchy, since im constantly monitoring do i feel itchy.
its just ridiculous, but it perfectly describes my last 5 months obsessions change but behavior remains.
p.s. i will get my self checked anyways seeing gp in few days i just have a feeling even if gp says its nothing i wont believe him. -.-

Hi again kalj

This sounds like health anxiety mixed with OCD. I had some health anxiety over having a heart problem a month or so ago (I was convinced it was a heart attack) and I know how it feels! It's pretty scary, but usually with things like these it's never as bad as it seems.

Swollen lymph nodes usually happen because of an infection, you may just have an abscess or something relatively harmless (not harmless per se but nothing as serious as lymphoma)!

For now, I'd recommend staying off of Google and avoiding Googling things about it. Try and distract yourself from it and if it's painful try and Google what you can do to reduce pain instead of Googling the cause.

When you see your GP, ask and see if it's possible to get checked more than once while you're there, just to be sure. It's unlikely that a test will be wrong twice in a row!

You'll be okay, I hope everything goes well for you when you see your GP!