What's the weirdest way your OCD has ever manifested itself?

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I ask this question because of the way my TOCD seemed to combine with another obsession of mine. This is going to sound so strange, but ever since I was little, I would have these obsessions with certain TV shows or characters. They'd go on sometimes for months at a time, except the only difference is that they didn't give me anxiety; they made me super happy. Maybe those don't count as "real" obsessions then, but I was obsessed nevertheless.

Anyway, I recently got re-obsessed with one of those shows (even though it's been cancelled for years!) and I've been happy because of it, so the last month has actually been pretty good. I identify strongly with one of the characters on this show. But then, last night, I was watching some videos from Button Poetry on YouTube and I saw one from a FTM trans person. I figured I would watch it, even though it might give me some anxiety, because I can't let the things that make me anxious totally run my life. But then I got a thought that - oh my gosh, what if my favorite character on that show was actually trans?

There's no evidence that this character was trans. The character was, I'm sure, 99.99% NOT trans. THEY'RE NOT EVEN A REAL PERSON. But now I've been thinking about it all day, and I'm worried I'll never be able to watch this show and see this amazing character the same way again. It's interesting, because I know this is OCD and I'm not even "anxious" per se about this, but now I'm slightly concerned. I TOTALLY recognize that this is ridiculous though, and hopefully it'll pass soon.

Anyone else have weird OCD manifestations? Any tips on how to not let this ruin my favorite show? I'd love to use this thread as a way to see just how ridiculous some of our obsessions are, and maybe be able to laugh at them a bit. Spread a little positivity, because we WILL beat this

Mine likes to make me think I'm trans. I'm a woman, I've always liked being a woman. But the last few days my OCD has been trying to make me think I'm a transguy, that I've always wanted to be a guy, that I was a tomboy because I always wanted to be a boy. And that I want a penis even though I've never thought about having a penis - but now I can feel it messing with my memory. So yeah. That's the weirdest way it's messed with me so far

I struggle with HOCD, so I have so many thoughts about my sexual orientation and trying to figure out what it "truly" is and ya know. But by far the weirdest way my OCD has manifested itself is I check my fingers. for anyone with HOCD who doesn't know what this is stop reading because it WILL trigger you. That's how my obsession started! But I saw a post on this forum about a finger ratio thing that this person had been obsessing over. Of course I had to look it up. All these articles said if you're a female and your index finger is shorter than your ring, there's a correlation that that's likelier in lesbians. Now from a rational standpoint, maybe there's a correlation but if you already know your sexuality that wouldn't just change it you know? Like I identify as straight so just because my fingers are a certain way that doesn't really mean anything. But I of course FREAKED out. I looked up pictures of female hands online trying to find pictures of ones like mine on a straight woman to feel better. i would look at wedding ring accounts on instagram because they're always showing their hands on there so I could compare. I would compare my hands with my friends. It's just a habitual thing now for me to stare at other girls hands to try to see their finger ratio. It's so crazy and not rational at all, like I'm obsessing over the length of people's fingers! And my therapist and I have gone over the rationality of this and tried to point out how the length of fingers doesn't determine your sexuality. It's like I consciously know that, but I still worry. But that's OCD for ya

I would check my fingers to determine if I was gay, but I realized that it was bunk. OCD makes us do irrational things and try to rationalize them. It's the doubting disease.

My biggest issue is checking pictures of men to see if I'm attracted to them. I always freak if I see a pic of a nice looking guy because then I think I've spent the last 11 years in denial. Of course, finding a guy attractive does not mean you're gay. My mom has called women beautiful and pretty and she is straight. I think homophobia and the extreme gender policing towards men makes it hard for us to appreciate if another guy is nice looking.