Is this OCD? please help

i have been thinking about this for a while now, wondering if i have OCD... so many of my friends have pointed out 'do you have OCD?'
and i think i might have...
(by the way, i'm 17)
anyways,

-all the time, whatever i'm doing i perform ritual-type things. this may be something i do routinely like every night, or something i make up on the spot. for example:
. i have a going to bed routine which i do everyday that i am home... this is long, sorry. uhhm first i turn the computer off, and then as the computer shuts down i do as many tasks as i can that i set myself before the computer properly shuts down (turning lights on/off, pulling the duvet over my bed, tucking the desk chair in, etc.) i count how many tasks i have done out of the ones i set myself, and i use this as a probability marker for a certain thing. (eg. 6/7 tasks done, 6/7 chance i will get into university, or something) once i've done that, i sit by my bed. i have to get into the bed at an even numbered minute time. i take ten steps and get into bed, before the time switches to an even number. i also have to turn the light off on an even number and do this weird thing that involves looking at lights in my room for certain amounts of seconds. wooow that took a long time to write, i'm sorry xPP

- i also walk in a very certain way, particularly on pavements. i walk always with my left foot going first over a line/mark on road/etc and if i don't do it right i make myself go back. my friends have given up asking why i walk so strangely...

-there are sooo many more things too, that i make up on the spot. sometimes i make myself say things that i don't really want to say.

-i always worry about things. i am also extremely scared when walking around my house even. i am afraid EXTREMELY easily, even when i know something's not true.

-i repetitively check things (like my wallet is in my bag or something) even if i checked a minute before, and there is NO WAY it could have gone anywhere or been stolen.

-reading is such a pain for me, because i constantly make myself go back and re-read paragraphs, sometimes multiple times. when i make a typing error on the computer, i make myself delete the whole word before retyping it.

- all this 'ritual' stuff i find so distressing. i hate it and try and make myself stop, or not do a task... but i still do it anyway, or i'll worry so much D8 sometimes it can have bad consequences too. i once dropped a jar of mustard while trying to hold it and open the cupboard door in a particular way, even though i knew that it was a stupid idea. i cried so much over it...

-another thing... i don't think this is related, though. i have a habit of getting really attatched to objects, and have almost an obsession that they shouldn't be 'wasted' or go 'unloved' for example, if i see a half eaten apple on the road, i'll feel so sad. not because i think 'there are so many starving people, and someone just wasted food.' but because i think 'the poor apple, nobody wanted to eat it...' soo yup >___<;; i also really hate throwing things away, especially things like old toys.


uhhm i think i've spoken enough. Hope somebody read through all of this...

Hi there:
It was not boring at all, but very interesting.
It especially touched me the last part of the "apple example", because when I was younger (I'm 34 now, so much older than you) I used to have those thoughts also. I used to eat everything in my plate just not to disrespect the "poor food". And buy a clothes I didn't like because I couldn't stand the idea of abandoning it on the store, fearing nobody would like it, and make unhappy those who designed it. With getting older, those specific thoughts are fewer, bu I do have some obsessions, so I guess maybe the trace you described is common to OCD personality.
Good luck... and a kiss

ahh thank-you for your reply n w n

i get the clothes thing too xDD
only i don't buy the clothes, i'm sooo careful about money > 3<
i just leave the shop feeling sad...
it's the same if i hear someone saying they don't like something >__<

"Ditto" to what Princess said.

Do you worry about losing your beautiful sensitivity and caring if you were to get professional (counseling or pharmacological) help to reduce the uncomfortable and constraining parts of the OCD.

I'm betting (and hoping) you would not.

PS: The only thing more beautiful than the food or clothing of which you both speak is the beings that YOU ARE -- the beings who can care so tenderly.

All the best!

thank you lots for your kind comment <3

i don't think i would have a problem to get professional help ^ u ^ so maybe that's something i should definitely consider in the future <3
i'm a little aprehensive about it now though, due to school and stuff xP

nao any more comments~~~?

yeah, that's OCD for ya. i have a "night routine" type thing too...before i sleep, i look at one window, then the other, then my clock....i can't really close my eyes before i do...and I definitely understand the walking and all...Not good at giving advice, sorry...but you're not alone. oh, and i'm 16.

I constantly shaking my legs. I have restless legs . I am not sure if it is OCD or not.