Newbie - need help

Hello,

This is a first time for me asking for help on a forum so bear with me if I don't seem as clear as I would want to be.

Basically to put things short (I will go further in details after) I'm wondering whether I have pure O due to the thoughts I'm having.

For the past few months I have been having thoughts that completely take over my brain, wondering whether I'm with the right person and how things would be if I was on my own. Now when I say the are obsessive thoughts, I mean they are there literally through the whole day. I also have some an obsession with the fact that I am going to knock over a pedestrian and found on the internet that that is known as hit and run OCD.

Absolutely horrible thoughts as they make me feel like I'm cheating on my partner which I am not, but I'm full of guilt.

I have spoken to my psychiatrist about this and I don't think she understands. I have been put on 10mg Olanzapine.

Now, I am currently coming of paroxetine <Paxil> that I was on for over a year and wondering whether all of this has a connection?

I would really appreciate anyone's views on this and now notably if anyone has gone through this and how they got out of it? I know the 'real me' does not want to leave the person I am with and don't understand why I'm getting these horrid thoughts.
The only relief I get at the moment is 0.5 Xanax that I take when needed.

I have seen the thoughts get so strong that I've visualized explaining of my partner that it's over and i will be moving on on my own.

Thanks ever so much to who'ever can help me

Hi, Wez87. Sorry you've been feeling worse. As I'm sure you know both ROCD and hit and run OCD are very common forms of OCD, though that doesn't make having either any easier. And medication changes can, unsurprisingly, result in changing symptoms; whether they get better, worse, or just change. Of course so can any number of other things; stress, diet, sleep, exercise, sickness, etc.

I'm curious what makes you think your psychiatrist didn't understand you? Do they not believe that you have OCD? Also, have you ever considered seeing a CBT therapist?