I feel defeated (HOCD) please, please read..

I never feel any false attraction to boys like I did. But I never feel any attraction to girls like I believe I did. There's a few girls I feel like I'd like to be with and that but I could never bring myself to text them I just don't see it happening until im completely happy with myself. I see some lads texting multiple girls while I struggle to text one a day and that makes me wonder. But I stopped talking to boys that I never had any sort of feelings for when this hit me bad. People talk and I just wouldn't want them girls saying oh he was trying to text me the other day and stuff like that.
It sucks having no attraction to any girls even though I can be aroused by them. Is it common to lose attraction with this??