Hello.
I mean, does health anxiety relates to ocd in any way ?
I thought, well, kind of... yes. And so I read online. There is some kind of obsession in it, and some compulsion to find releaf.
But what I really don't get is:
1) differently from ocd or hypochondriasis, if I fear a illness, it's not completely irrational. Maybe it's because I feel a very strange pain long-term, 4 months ago it happened because I had swollen lymph nodes for 6 months (I still do have, so it's 10 months now), then because I got some eye floaters wich bother me.
So... usually it all starts because I feel or see something real and "not normal".
2) Another thing I don't get: hypochrondriasis and Ocd, correct me if I'm wrong, no matter what logical answer they get, but their fears won't dissipate. Well, let's go back to swollen lymph nodes , I got lot of them down the groin for half an year, I was getting very scared (a friend of mine got testicular cancer 4 years ago, he is well and healthy now though), I went to my doctor and he told me it shouldn't be anything to be preoccupied but to come back if they didn't go away in some other month. I found some relief and I forced myself to don't take any action, I did, but after 2 months (I anticipated a bit:) ) I was still somewhat anxious from time to time, not really obsessing if not when particularly stressed, so I went back with the clear idea to ask him a prescription for a scan. I made it, and came out nothing serious. From that day my fear completely went away even if they are still swollen.
I do get rarely irrational fears, which can also terrify me, but they usually dissipate on their own or occasionally googling to find out if it relates to me, if I can't find CLEAR signs i stop obsessing without further reassurance.
Problem is that once one fear goes away I seem to "wait" untill something else "not normal" comes up and start the fear cycle again.
I really don't know and ask for your opinion, how should I treat this ?? Like ocd or hypo (mind that I found erp of little help, yes it lowers my arousal, but the real "not normal thing" is still there and so I find myself to forcefully ignore something very real), should I just treat like a hypersensitive and exagerated anxious response ? Could, in my case, talk therapy lower my arousal (it all started from an emotional violence some year ago, but looking back I have to say I'm fearfull maybe because of several past traumas, one involving a degenerative illness that took away my mom) once I resolve these past issues ? Really looks like a long way to go before I can find relief.
I'd like you to share some suggestion.