POCD OR PEDOPHILIA(YOUNGER AGE INCIDENTS)

Is having fantasies,and impulses towards everyone in your early adolscence(all ages ALL,except babies and very old people) normal or to worry about?I was like this and I remember being bit sexually impulsive and fantasizing or wanting to touch every female butt i could see,this was the center of my fantasies,the female buttock,but I would mostly fantasize about every age(EVERY),but mostly my peers....I was 12-14

PS:Also had this for male butts when 11(and fantasize)
Does this make me a pedophile? I stumbled across DSM5 when 13 and fear of being pedo,made me go to 5 psychiatrists and all said I suffer from OCD (POCD).But sometimes it gets too tricky,lots and tons and tons of information from other people in the net,from forums,articles...blah blah,it just goes to detailed and the obsession is getting stronger and stronger and then I burst in crying.I am on anti-depressants and when I am under POCD the doubts make me think I might be a pedo,I dont know.But when I am ok I wont even notice kids,and the mere sexual thought makes me very very unconfortable and even repulsed.

PS: If any pedophile is here I would also like to hear their opinion,I have nothing against pedophiles who dont offend.


When under obsessions I will ruminate everything,every detail of my life from 12 until now,more and more and more delving into this...I m still butt-crazed,but still then when young,in my all-age fantasies age(even child age) didnt matter to my fantasies....just butts.I am also a OC character I believe because I have known many things in my life that prove obsessive(abnormally obsessive behaviour),and even the butts are a part of it.I also have a paraphilia(copr) but I knew it always I mean in my life i saw that the fascination was building since very young age just didnt notice.....but I dont recall my object of fantasies be the child by itself,just wanted butts from all ages and different shapes(I believe this is also a part of OC character)

I also suffered from trauma as a child(I have Arthrogryposis Multiplex Congenita,and was hospitalized approximately from 2-6,had seven operation and remember them,also had an obsession(non OCD) for lamps that stemmed from my fear of surgery lamp above my head,I would taxonomise name and categorize lamps((just what I did and do with butts)) etc etc,just always got this strange re-appearing pattern of obsessing over the ''differences'' between the same object like having variety,also with ages and butts that was)),I am also sexually attracted to mid-to-late pubescents sometimes more some times less than adults,I dunno)).

When I am into this ocd thing I feel sometimes like not attracted to women,like my penis grows small and things like this ,but when I see a curvy woman naked I long and desire her body sexually,I mean I always liked big bubble butts(didnt care about breasts),and I am freaking the $#%^ out right now.Like my interest in adolescent begun years after having this ocd thing like being ''Fantasising about all ages is wrong,and it didnt cost me'' and just stopped there but even my attraction to adolescents sometimes feel innate and sometimes it feels like a byproduct of the fear I had all these years.I dont have a problem with this ephebophilia or my coprofilia I do love them both and they arouse me but about pedophilia I am too scared from all this!!!

mp_96 wrote:Is having fantasies,and impulses towards everyone in your early adolscence(all ages ALL,except babies and very old people) normal or to worry about?I was like this and I remember being bit sexually impulsive and fantasizing or wanting to touch every female butt i could see,this was the center of my fantasies,the female buttock,but I would mostly fantasize about every age(EVERY),but mostly my peers....I was 12-14

PS:Also had this for male butts when 11(and fantasize)
Does this make me a pedophile? I stumbled across DSM5 when 13 and fear of being pedo,made me go to 5 psychiatrists and all said I suffer from OCD (POCD).But sometimes it gets too tricky,lots and tons and tons of information from other people in the net,from forums,articles...blah blah,it just goes to detailed and the obsession is getting stronger and stronger and then I burst in crying.I am on anti-depressants and when I am under POCD the doubts make me think I might be a pedo,I dont know.But when I am ok I wont even notice kids,and the mere sexual thought makes me very very unconfortable and even repulsed.

PS: If any pedophile is here I would also like to hear their opinion,I have nothing against pedophiles who dont offend.


When under obsessions I will ruminate everything,every detail of my life from 12 until now,more and more and more delving into this...I m still butt-crazed,but still then when young,in my all-age fantasies age(even child age) didnt matter to my fantasies....just butts.I am also a OC character I believe because I have known many things in my life that prove obsessive(abnormally obsessive behaviour),and even the butts are a part of it.I also have a paraphilia(copr) but I knew it always I mean in my life i saw that the fascination was building since very young age just didnt notice.....but I dont recall my object of fantasies be the child by itself,just wanted butts from all ages and different shapes(I believe this is also a part of OC character)

I also suffered from trauma as a child(I have Arthrogryposis Multiplex Congenita,and was hospitalized approximately from 2-6,had seven operation and remember them,also had an obsession(non OCD) for lamps that stemmed from my fear of surgery lamp above my head,I would taxonomise name and categorize lamps((just what I did and do with butts)) etc etc,just always got this strange re-appearing pattern of obsessing over the ''differences'' between the same object like having variety,also with ages and butts that was)),I am also sexually attracted to mid-to-late pubescents sometimes more some times less than adults,I dunno)).

When I am into this ocd thing I feel sometimes like not attracted to women,like my penis grows small and things like this ,but when I see a curvy woman naked I long and desire her body sexually,I mean I always liked big bubble butts(didnt care about breasts),and I am freaking the $#%^ out right now.Like my interest in adolescent begun years after having this ocd thing like being ''Fantasising about all ages is wrong,and it didnt cost me'' and just stopped there but even my attraction to adolescents sometimes feel innate and sometimes it feels like a byproduct of the fear I had all these years.I dont have a problem with this ephebophilia or my coprofilia I do love them both and they arouse me but about pedophilia I am too scared from all this!!!

Also te taboo thing thrills me a lot,like I had masturbated to strange pornography because of that like zoophilic or rape(not real) and things like this,even incest throughout my years.

I want to add that I was in love this summer I was ok with a girl(adult) and when we hold hands I will get an erection,it felt very good and it was physical and mental together.In my fantasies desire doesnt play a role just butts and sexuality,and then ocd hits and I am like ''Maybe i wasnt in love?Maybe I am a repressed pedo?Maybe this and that?Maybe I dont like adults?''I would mechanically when ok,save ass pics of teens or women,teen models and adult pornstars all ass pics,cause variety and then check the pics to see if some are too young and I delete because I didnt like the characteristics,and then I obsess over why did I saved that pic because when I see it again and be ok I dont feel like attracted,and afraid if I fantasize about ir in the past,and I found out that I was trying to find that ''ass pic'' from wherever I could if i couldnt find in one picture set I would try to find it in another set even If i didnt like that set,things like this
So sorry I am putting you to read all this but please it is my thought says if someone misses a detail everything is going to be perceived wrongly.Sometimes I wrote strange fetish stories like mother/son brother/sister and if the stories were about very very young people like child,I would feel uncomfortable,and like tight-up my thights because of fear of erection it goes automatically or feel like groinal response and I test myself every single hour.I also take testing to another level making diagramms and creating visual testing simulators to find out.

mp_96 wrote:I want to add that I was in love this summer I was ok with a girl(adult) and when we hold hands I will get an erection,it felt very good and it was physical and mental together.In my fantasies desire doesnt play a role just butts and sexuality,and then ocd hits and I am like ''Maybe i wasnt in love?Maybe I am a repressed pedo?Maybe this and that?Maybe I dont like adults?''I would mechanically when ok,save ass pics of teens or women,teen models and adult pornstars all ass pics,cause variety and then check the pics to see if some are too young and I delete because I didnt like the characteristics,and then I obsess over why did I saved that pic because when I see it again and be ok I dont feel like attracted,and afraid if I fantasize about ir in the past,and I found out that I was trying to find that ''ass pic'' from wherever I could if i couldnt find in one picture set I would try to find it in another set even If i didnt like that set,things like this
So sorry I am putting you to read all this but please it is my thought says if someone misses a detail everything is going to be perceived wrongly.Sometimes I read strange fetish stories like mother/son brother/sister and if the stories were about very very young people like child,I would feel uncomfortable,and like tight-up my thights because of fear of erection it goes automatically or feel like groinal response and I test myself every single hour.I also take testing to another level making diagramms and creating visual testing simulators to find out.

In teens I notice sometimes I see characteristics I find appealing(face-wise) to a particular adult female I am attracted to,sexually not romantically.For example a teen or two or three that have facial characteristics attributed to this girl makes them more attractive to me.I think here lies ''something''.I never had a girlfriend,have low-self esteem and confidence because of bullying mainly,in school,being different in a physical point(not too different) due to Arthrogryposis and also being the best in the class from primary to high school.Both I was bullied for.Not in high school though.Whenever i feel this urge to get a girlfriend POCD pops up and says ''Maybe you want to have a gf to prove you are not a pedo'' etc etc,sure a relationship would have clarified a lot of fears.Also on sex,I am more into anal and dryhump-like things,because of this obsession with buttocks.But all my life until two years back(have POCD for 7 years,self-identified as ephebo 2 years ago) were always big butts and breasts(though breasts werent my object of desire so much).Taboo generally excites me too,generally i feel like a variety-phile,if that exists .....i dunno

You were age 13 and scared of being a pedo?

Pedophiles are adults who are sexually attracted to children.

You are young, it seems. There's nothing wrong about fantasizing about your age group. And if you are older, you can still fantasize, doesn't mean you'll act on it.

When I was 11~13 I had sexual fantasies and urges to every single breathing person!All ages from 6 to 50 all ages then I scared too much said my parents I AM SCARED OF BEING PEDO GET ME TO PSYCHIATRIST!!!!I stopped to fantasies about every age butts because I was promiscuous sexually and very sexual my sexual fantasies throughout my life were predominantly about adults also had a lot of fetishes.I only cared to fantasies anyone who had an ass.This I cared only about butts,didn't care for age,but when seen dsm 4 pedophilia I got terrified told my parents to get me to PSYCHIATRIST .All crushes I had though were older women and peers.