HOCD Backdoor Spike?

I have been suffering from HOCD for 5-6 months. This past month however, HOCD changed.. It shifted. I have seen a decrease in the anxiety, on a scale from 1-10 it doesn't go beyond a 3-4. I'm still nauseous all the time, and my headaches are still pretty bad, but Whenever I'm around other females (or just anyone in general) my mind will say "they're hot." even though they're clearly not.. Sometimes I'll shrug it off and move on with my life, but this is still a bit concerning. The thoughts still bother me a lil bit, but they're not accompanied by anxiety anymore. Is this normal? Is this just a backdoor spike or am I accepting that I'm gay/bi? My main concern is that I'm not as anxious as i used to be, but my attraction to males hasn't come back (i'm a girl). I have developed small crushes on guys this past month, and even ran into an ex crush that i still have feelings for.. But I'm still terrified of becoming something I'm not even though I'm not as anxious.. I'm doing self help so any information would be really helpful. Thank you! - Mara

I don't have any experience of HOCD but it sounds like this is how I've been feeling this past couple of days about the fear I don't have OCD. I've felt worried because I don't feel as anxious about it as I used to, therefore I think 'well maybe this means I don't have OCD after all!'

I'm sure I read somewhere a while ago that this can happen with OCD?