Transformational ocd

Anybody get the type of ocd where you are afraid of acquiring negative traits of people you hate and you would do any kind of rituals to get rid of thoughts related to those people so that they dont contaminate you and make you just like them.I hope someone can relate to it?

Yes, I can sort of relate. I had POCD, but not in the conventional sense. I couldn't read the news or watch tele in case there was something related to child abuse and I would some how become tainted by it and it would change me. It isn't as bad as it used to be, but I still avoid the media (even Facebook because news crops up on there sometimes) and I get my husband to read the 'safe' new stories out to me.

Apparently it's known as 'mental contamination' or emotional contamination'.

I've had these obsessions a few times. Are you having any treatment at the moment?

I can relate to this too. I have a huge fear of reading any kind of serious news or being on social media. If I read about someone's wrongdoing I somehow convince myself maybe I'm capable of doing something awful or maybe I have and don't know it. I will say therapy is helping me, slowly.

I also find that I can't read about murders and attacks for the same reason. I'm glad therapy is helping. I think it's a long term thing and won't happen overnight.

I became a rebel against everything negative and began to believe in myself

Hi RecoveryGuru.

Do you mean exposure? I'm about to start that in earnest next week.

About 8 years I decided to follow my own spiritual path. I still fear learning will damage my mind, but I have become strong inside by thinking of mantras that I created myself. Mantras about love, peace, joy, strength, understanding, and so on. Since I created them myself I do not fear them so much and as I improved the fear of learning was not as bad.

I have ocd and bipolar 1 by the way. I am 30 and was diagnosed at 15

I have bipolar 1 and OCD too. I get even more obsessional when manic, hypomanic or mixed. Last year's episode left me in tatters.

I agree that spirituality is important, but I often find myself getting very spiritual (well, delusional) when mania or hypomania is setting in. It's now at the point where I worry about doing spiritual stuff in case it means that I'm heading for another episode.

Hi cloudshark,

I used to have the same issue with spirituality. Now I am an atheist that is deeply involved with my family, love and understanding. I used to be a christian for 20 years of my life. Then I tried tai chi and buddhism for 6 years. I eventually decided that spirituality (as long as it's helpful) is ok.