Am I gay?? Or is it OCD!!!!! Help

Am I gay or do I have HOCD?!??

I have been suffering from OCD since I was about 7/8, I started off worrying and waking up at night about having nightmares and I would obsess over days and days on end about all of these dreams I was having, then the worrying went away, they kept coming back every now and then but that was normal my family told me. Then my OCD hit worse then ever, it was February this year and I had the implant put in because I have a boyfriend and we thought we would be sexually active, then one day I woke up thinking that I didn't love my boyfriend anymore, I cried for days on end and I worried and worried and didn't eat or sleep, I broke up with him because my mind told me it was best, I then regretted it so so much and we argued for two weeks straight, now we are getting back to normal slowly, however last Thursday night it got even worse I woke up Friday morning to a nightmare of me and another girl doing stuff, I cried and cried and I felt sick to my stomach, I felt suicidal, I locked myself in my room for days, I couldn't watch tv I couldn't go outside I couldn't do anything incase it would spike my OCD, the thoughts are becoming so real, I can't sleep at night as in afraid I'll have another nightmare, everytime I go out I can't look at another girl incase I get spiked, it's gotten to the point where I can't take it anymore I love my boyfriend so so much but it's starting to affect him aswell and he is so so supportive of me but I don't want to loose him and I just want these thoughts to go away please help me!!!!!

You're not gay. Calm yourself down. Don't freak out. These thoughts happen, learn to ignore them. Intrusive gay thought? Just say 'whatever'. As it seems, you're very anxious at this moment, just calm down.
This is HOCD, pretty comm in this subforum. I have it. I passed through what you're going on right now. Instead of fighting the thought, just let it come and go. Do this for some days, you will already feel better.