My OCD is convincing me I have Trichotillomania?

Hello! First post here (:
Some background : I'm 23 years old and I've been suffering with OCD, depression, BDD and anxiety since I was in my early teens. I've been to therapy for 6 years straight but can't afford to go, so now I only see my psychiatrist. I'm on Prozac, Ativan and Remeron.

Usually I have terrible intrusive thoughts and urges that are irrational , but I have a hard time coping. I actually had my OCD under control until I randomly saw a video about hair pulling and I immediately became sick to my stomach and said "what if I have that or what if I start pulling my hair ?"

Funny thing is that I never in my life pulled my hair or had the urge to! I do however pick at my skin, but not all the time and it doesn't affect my life. Now I feel like I have this "urge" to pull my hair or eyelashes and it terrifies me ): It's always in my mind that I'm going to give into the urge, as if my OCD is trying to force me to pick my hair. I feel very aware of my eyelashes when I blink , it's disturbing, and I kind of run my fingers through my hair to test myself.Someone please help! Am I going to cave into this urge?? Is it just a thought or is this a legitimate impulse? I'm losing sleep and I can't eat. I'm having a difficult time coping...I'm afraid I'll develop Trichotillomania because of my OCD .

Thank you!

Hi
I have OCD & trichotillamania. I pull out large bald spots and once I get started pulling it's hard to stop. The best thing I can say is don't give in to the urge to pull. I've been doing this so long now that I'm not sure how it started but I feel fairly certain that I started because something didn't "feel right" about an eyelash or an eyebrow. As my psychologist tells me all the time "just because you have a thought doesn't mean you have to act on it". Good luck!

Thank you! I've been having this thought for about 2 weeks and it's driving me crazy ): I know it's my OCD and I keep telling myself that, but I know reassuring can be bad...hopefully I'll be able to see a therapist soon.

do you remember what age you started to pull?