Can you evaluate whether I have HOCD or Bi/Homosexual denial

I have been suffered HOCD kinda of thing long time but I am honestly confused these days whether it is HOCD or I am actually homo or bisexual.
I have lived my life liked women (a lot) so that this kind of confusion is purely anxious and nervous.

So, today I wrote down some of the things going on in my head and I want to ask you guys whether I have HOCD or homo/bisexual tendencies. I try my best to be honest about it.

* Things Bother me the most these days
- Occasional Groinal Response
- Constant anxiety and nervousness (my stomach is always upset from this)
- Have a constant headache and clouded mind
- Having a hard time interacting with guys without feeling uncomfortable
- Fear that I am actually a gay or bisexual
- Thinking about homosexual things I don't want to think and tell myself I might like it, and having a hard time whether this thought is true or not.
- Reduced sexual attraction to opposite sexes
- Sensitive to the homosexual thoughts which amplifies my anxiety

* Things make me feeling like I am gay/bisexual
- Thinking about men (just an image of guys I know or (sometimes) sexual things)
- Nervous and Shy away when I see guys (I didn't have this until I have this kind of OCD going on)
- Sometimes I look at guys groin area (I don't know why I am doing this. Maybe I am gay/bi or I have complex about my penis size that keep checking others)
- Feeling of maybe I am denying myself and need to be honest to myself to make myself happy (I don't know this is true or not though)

* Things make me feeling like I am straight
- Don't feel happy/great when I am thinking about image of men
- Feeling excited and happy when I see pretty/hot girls in the street
- I have never attracted to the guys for 23 years in my life (This thing happened to me pretty suddenly like 2-3 weeks ago)
- Able to think about having a boyfriend or having sex with guy, BUT feeling uncomfortable about this (Feeling like I just don't want to do this)
- Deep inside I think myself as straight (When I shouted out to vent my stress out at my friends house, "I don't like these homosexual thoughts! I am a straight guy! I love pussies!", I felt so wonderful!)

* My situation before this thing happened
- I thought about guys but I didn't respond sensitively as these days. It was just a random thought.
- I have constant interest about girls throughout every college semesters but I was very frustrated because I couldn't approach to them and express my interest to them due to my insecurity and inferiority
- Addicted to porn and masturbation (masturbated almost every days)
- Stressed by my life (study, new challenges in life, my future etc...)
- Have bunch of other types of OCDs (ex) I know I am not sick but my mind keeps telling me I have some problem going on, which leads to somatosymptonic illness)
- Having hard time socially interacting with others
- Had very bad lifestyle and constantly exhausted (I tend to have more homosexual thoughts when I am tired, it's like my thoughts are spreading like wildfires and hard to control them)

* What I am afraid of
- Me becoming real gay/bisexual (or finding out during my marriage/relationship that I am gay)
- Abandoned by my family and friends (I am aware of this because I heard that most gays have hard time coming out because they are afraid of losing connection with others around them if they come out. This is also a fear I have too that I am so scared)
- That I need to accept a new identity of mine which I looked at it negatively and never expected to have it.

* What I want
- Make sure that I am not gay/bisexual
- Stop being sensitive about homosexual thoughts
- Don't feel uncomfortable when I interact with guys
- No more groinal response
- Stop feeling anxious and nervous (and no more headaches and upset stomach)
- SOME PEACE OF MIND*


I am curious about what others think!
It would be really great for me to see others response about this. (At least, it would give me relief in my mind.)

Closet homosexuality: always had these feelings as far as they can remember.

HOCD: Homosexual thoughts started with the anxiety, later in life.

Even most closet homosexuals don't find their desire dirty, but rather afraid others will find out.