You are straight

my hocd anxiety is gone but everyday im closer to accepting my probable gayness. i get a lot of arousal from the thoughts, im always paying attn to women & how pretty they r (find them more attractive than men- my attraction to men feels hollow forced n fake n always has i think. im just more comfortable w it and i think i just grew up trying to ignore the attraction to women /hoping it would go away /hoping my attractions to guys would be more intense/grabbing onto the slightest crush on a guy and forcing it but i have these intense thoughts towards women n i have to accept them bc for years i hoped they would go away hopefully this helps someone else bc i enjoy the thoughts toward women at times ans i think i dont bc i dont want to accept them but as time passes i find myself accepting them.

I think all of u are straight (or whatever orientation u prefer regardless of what hocd tells u and you have HOCD! It will lessen in time!! Dont give up! unfortunately ive been on and off these forums for years and i need to accept my probable gayness. i get these thoughts without barely trying toward women like imagining sexual thoughts and i try to do the same to men and it never ever happens its like my mind doesnt wanna come up with it bc it prefers women and easily finds sexual thoughts of women. and i think now if no one ever influenced u ud probably be with women, u dont even csre for men stop forcing it

Im still on these forums though and I stopped for like a week? But its a comfort
to me. I still read it in hopes of finding relief but i know i wont and evrn when i dont care abour my sexuality it just brings me closer to being gay. so i guess thats my answer. just trying not to care and assign importance to it, luckily taking SSRIs help a lot and take away the anxiety and worry related to the thought but theyre always there and theyre arousing i think the next step to figure it out for real is to just try to experiment with a girl. i feel like im so lost but i know this is probably natural if i really am coming to terms w my burgeoning sexuality

Well if you are, I must be as well.