OCD Harming sick of this please help! (Possible Trigger)

These past few months, I've been going through the harsh conditions of Harm related OCD. These thoughts are off, me killing my loved ones though I would never do such a thing followed by Images In my mind of me acting on the thoughts. I often worry that I would eventually enjoy these thoughts and start wanting to act them out. I must mention me and my friends were watching a game series all of a sudden It goes to a moment of where the person Is harming others. A thought came into my mind saying What If did this. The thought freaked me out beyond belief to the point where I thought I was a to become a Sociopath I Immediately attempted to not think about these thoughts but found that was of no use. Throughout my day, I feel confused amongst these thoughts I spend my days scouring forums for answers or people who have the same thoughts.



Sometimes I'm sure that I have OCD but panic, that I'm turning Into a Sociopath/serial killer. I'm not sure that these are compulsions or that that I'm trying to prove that I have OCD. Before this, I would often check things multiple times to be sure the lights are off or taps aren't still running.

Hopefully, someone would kindly help -OCDAid

Dear OCDAid:

I happen to have had OCD for fifty years and I also happen to (used to) read lots and lots of True Crime. I was fascinated by what made people do horrible things.

First, although as a child I imagined torturing people and even enjoying the images (I was very angry then)- I never did.

Second, all those books I read for twenty years (20 years of reading True Crime)... so many, many about real serial killers and sociopaths, interestingly enough, now that I am thinking about it, none of them and I mean none was OCD, not a single one. A few I am thinking about now were quite calm. Some enjoyed what they did but none had OCD... and they were studied by psychiatrists after they were caught.

I hope this helps...?

atina